Chapter 62
Aiden
I was pissed that I had been kicked off Riverclaw pack lands. I wasn’t pissed at them. I was pissed off at myself. I should have never snapped at Lexi like I did. Or try to order her around. I was watching the whole time. I saw there was no danger. The wolves were in cages and couldn’t get out. Alpha, Lexi’s guardians, Luther and I were right there in case something happened. I should have trusted Lexi. She had everything under control. I should have just let her be. It was awesome what she had done. But I didn’t say that.
No, I had to open my stupid mouth and say those wolves needed to be killed. I could feel how much she cared about them. And saw how she treated them. Like they were children instead of wild animals. They were having such a good day. Lexi had gotten to meet Razor. Yes, I was a little jealous that Razor got to touch her and bring her to orgasm. It was my body but the rest was Razor. I only caught a glimpse of Lexi’s incredible naked body before Razor shut me out. Lexi didn’t want me to see her like that and Razor complied with her wishes. She still doesn’t trust me. I’m holding on by a thread as it is. Most have fucked and marked thier mates by now. And she won’t even let me touch her. I get that it is important to wait until her birthday to mark her. But damn, I could at least hold her. Kiss down her body. We don’t have to have sex yet. Just like Luther said. There are plenty of other things that we can do. Like me kissing every inch of her.
Yes, I got to hold her last night. But I’m sure most of it was because she was upset with Luther. Before I could go further into my thoughts Razor roared at me “ What have you done?” Then just as I make it to the stairs to go up to my room I hear shouting behind me. I turn to see my parents, Melissa, Jesse and Jackson standing there all looking pissed. “ Why did I get a call from Alpha Evan saying that you not only insulted them but Lexi as well. And you tried to order her around.” dad asked.
I didn’t know what to tell them. “ The fucking truth, is what you tell them. That their son and future leader is a moron.” Razor growled. Ahh, he was giving me a headache. I hate to say it. He was right. So I told them all what happened. Jesse growled at me “ Are you fucking insane?” “ Do you have any idea what you have done? You could have started a war. Alpha Evan could have seen your actions as a challenge.” Dad yelled. “ And do you think Lexi is going to let you get close to her again after that? You just wasted all the headway you have made. You made her think you didn’t trust her or her abilities.” my mom said.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. “ I know I screwed up. I was scared she would get hurt. I didn’t want her around those wolves. And I’m frustrated. My mate won’t let me touch her. Luther has his arms around her all the time. Making her smile and laugh. He gets to kiss her. Razor gets more action than I do. And I lashed out.” I yelled in frustration. “ I get that you are frustrated, but you are going to have to get control of yourself. This isn’t how an Alpha should behave or a mate. Lexi is supposed to be your equal. You are supposed to work together. You know this. I have to support your mom just as she supports me. And you are going to have to do that with Lexi if she lets you get close to her again.” dad said.
“ I know. I fucked up royaly. I just keep fucking up. Razor is pissed at me again. I will apologize to Alpha Evan. And figure out how to apologize to Lexi.” I said. My mom shook her head. “ I think you need to stay away for a day or two. Let Lexi calm down. And for you to fix your priorities. If you keep worrying about your dick it is going to get you in trouble. Use your damn head. So you haven’t gotten laid yet. Nothing about your mating is normal. Especially your mate. Think of it as pissing off the Moon Goddess herself. You keep fucking up I would be surpised if she has Lexi’s next mate waiting for your next fuck up.”
Razor screams “ NO. You can’t let that happen. I will leave you. You will never shift again.” “ Mom, you can’t ask me to do that. I need to be near Lexi to keep the bond intact. It has already faded once. And it isn’t very strong now. If I stay away it could happen again. ” I yelled. “ Don’t you dare yell at me. You don’t think we are all hurt by your actions. We all love Lexi. Not just you. And I’m not saying you have to stay away for long. Give it a day. Two at the most.” mom said.
“ Melissa, Jackson and I will keep you updated on Lexi. But your mom is right. If you try to go now or even in the morning Lexi may still be mad at you and push you away more.” Jesse said. Fuck I hate this. “ Fine. I don’t like it but you are right. And Razor is going to go Ape shit. He has a strong bond with Lexi. He is going to be crushed.” I said. Razor lets out a mournful howl. I head up to my room to shower and clear my head. I hardly get two steps before Razoe starts growling at me.
“ I know you don’t like it but we need to give Lexi time.” I told him. “ No, you need to give her time. I didn’t screw up. You did. I’m sick of this. I’m going to lose my mate because of you. You tried to reject her. Then you wanted her back but you still keep messing up. I get so close you push her away. I swear I want to talk to the Goddess to give me a different human.” Razor said. He sounded so sad. I have never heard him like this. Could he really ask for another human? No, I shake my head as I head to my bathroom that is attached to my bedroom. I turn on the shower and strip down.
I get in and let the hot water run over me. I need to think. Melissa helped me last time but I know I’m not going to get help this time. I have to figure it all out on my own. But where to start. Candy, flowers and sweet words aren’t going to work. Lexi isn’t going to fall for that. I need something better. Something that she will know how I am sorry. That I won’t do it again. And I have two days to do it.
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