Chapter 117
The whole time I was feeling like an asshole trying to figure out how this could have happened. How I could have made such an impact on this woman who really had no clue who I was. I let her take control of the situation as she kissed me and put her hands on my backside pulling me closer to her and hiking one leg around me first and then the other. I let her climb me like a poll until she was where she wanted to be. She was now around my waist and being as close as two humans could actually be. “Please…. please don’t make me keep begging like this…. I know there are things you have on your plate right now, but if you could just at least think…think about it. I know we’d be in a long-distance relationship and I’m willing to do it…” “I—I don’t understand why…. You want to be with me you still haven’t given me a good enough reason to even consider it… I don’t want either one of us to end up hurt. That could very well happen” I whispered pulling back and stopping the kiss. Sharene was about to tell me more when we were interrupted by Sebastian who peeked around the corner knowing what we were doing. “Ummm again ladies sorry to interrupt but your parents are waiting at the curb for us. The tour starts in less than 20 minutes and don’t want to be late for NYU” he said.
After he backed away from us, I groaned and turned with Sharene still wrapped around me and headed down the hall to the front door. “Ok are you going to untangle yourself from me or am I to carry you like this all day long?” I asked with a little laugh. Sharene smiled and kissed me one last time leaving us both breathless. “Just something to think about” she said before untangling herself and being the first out the front door. We joined everyone at the curb with my friends all hugging me and Sharene. “You sure you want to be bored with the 3 of them on a tour instead of seeing New York and buying whatever we want?” Catherine asked with a tone that surprised me. “Wow Cate very nice of you to offer Sharene to tag along since I know you 3 don’t really know one another that well… Shar you are welcome to change your mind and tag along with them and have a good time” I said hoping she would take them up on the offer to give me a little time to think. Sharene thanked Catherine for inviting her but climbed into the SUV when Sebastian opened the door. I sighed as I looked at my friends and shrugged and apologized. “We’ll see you all after the tour for the next tours of possible living places that my dad has scheduled only if you want that is” I said before getting in.
The tour was amazing and was now right on the same line with Oxford and I knew that New York would never be boring. I had spent many weekends there and in the Hamptons with my mother for Mother’s Day weekends. I had also been thinking about Sharene’s pleading for me to just give her and us a chance to see where it might all lead. I always came back to her and her daughter along with not knowing where she even lived or met anyone significant in her life. I wanted to give in and just throw my heart into it but knew it wouldn’t just be my heart or hers. There would be a child involved and I was only going to be 19 while she had just turned 21 and had a lot on her plate. I had just as much as I had agreed to whatever inheritance my family had and the crazy things, we could do. Including reading people’s minds, thoughts, feelings, and could transport myself into dream streams. I was communicating with the dead well at least my dead relatives and was not sure how I was to explain that if we ever got really serious. “So, this is the thing you warned me about I take it Ethan… she’s wanting something I can’t give right now. Or I won’t because am not strong enough nor have the greatest track record” I thought to myself.
My father had stopped the two of us near an art class and peaked in while the ladies went ahead needing the bathroom. “Hey… I hope I’m not getting too personal, but I want you to know that your mother and I would support you in any relationship you’d ever be in. Whether it, were a man or woman just so you are aware and love you for whomever you are and become in your life. So, if you and Sharene are thinking on starting whatever it is you have going on ever since the beach house and she flipped out causing her to leave…. I hope it wasn’t because you told her you could not be in that type of relationship” he said keeping his eyes trained on the class. We both just stared everywhere else as I was at a loss for words not sure what to say now that my father seemed to be rooting for a relationship. One that was not even one at the moment and was not sure I would ever be. “I—I’m not sure what you want me to say… I feel like I’m in a downward head spin with Maxwell and myself getting things settled to men hurting me in a way that is not that important. Then woman wanting more than I can even give myself right now. I am trying to first set coarse to my education and what I’ll major in or start with first in college. Just to see what I even want to be for the rest of my life and the shit part is there is so much more I have going on. She is in college too and has a child… I’m going to be going home to a nut house with people all around and mother wanting to have a funeral. Also, to see the girls and where they’ve been kept for the last 8 months or so. I’m just not sure what you all want from me anymore and just wish I could get some breathing room to decide what the hell I want. Instead of people trying to take advantage of my good kind heart to give into their needs in more ways than I can give” I muttered before walking away needing a min to collect myself as my heart raced.
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