Chapter 76
The last one woke me as I balled up my fist and gave him a good right hook causing him to fall backwards on the floor. My eyes shot open wide, and I gasped for breath stumbling as I got up needing a cold shower after now waking in a sweat that was unlike any sweat bath I had ever experienced. The water and the sound of the music that I had put on drowned out my crying as I sat under the water as it poured down over me. I was hoping, the warmth of it would take away the chill I was feeling. “Hey…. I hate to be the barrier of bad news, but this won’t truly go away until you face it all head on. You’re on the right path in facing it in your dreams where you keep it. Now you have to execute it here in the physical world and now open up to mom and dad who are ready and waiting for you to come to them” Ethan said softly as he was always there in my head. I knew he was right but wasn’t ready and felt that it made me stronger when I kept it private and to myself.
It really only caused me more pain and heartache in the last couple of weeks then it ever had. “Ok, Ok Ethan but not today… today is for Nick and Jose to have all of us happy and here for them as they walk down the aisle and say, “I DO”. I will tell them what I want to tell them first. Then ease my way up to the girls in my own time ok so no pushing” I begged as I finally stood on my feet and finished washing up. I wrapped myself up in the robe after drying and opened the bedroom door. I was not surprised to find my parents waiting for me with my mother making my bed after stripping it. “I was coming out to do that…. Ummm is everything ok or should I go back in the bathroom and stay there until it is?” I asked. My father blocked the bathroom door as I tried to go back in. “No, you don’t, your mother and I are going to take a little while to talk before we all go down and join the festivities” he said as he handed me back my iPad.
There was no way I was getting away from the talking and they were definitely on a mission. “Oh fuck….. umm do we really have to do this right now… I wanted to save this for after the festivities so that we weren’t looking like a crazy family like I’ve been making us look… the things I have to say are not easy and it’s going to take more than just a 15 mins talk while I get ready” I admitted as I moved away and into my closet/dressing area to get ready. My parents Amelia and Ethan were both dressed and ready for the festivities. That told me that they had planned this probably since the night before and that was the reason my mother had joined Catherine and I that morning. “Ok so I’m assuming you found something on my iPad just not sure exactly what that is. I know Sebastian told you the conversation we had on it the other day so there’s that. Other than that, I know there isn’t much you could have found since I don’t keep anything on my devices for this exact reason. I keep it all locked away in here for very good reasons my I say” I said as I placed my hand over my chest emphasizing where I kept my most guarded secrets.
My mother took a seat on the chair that was under the big screen along with my father who took the one right next to her and waited for me to finish getting presentable. It did not stop them from making comments to themselves and whispering low enough I could not hear them only pissing me off. I dressed in my sun dress for cocktails and pulled out the dress I had chosen out of the ones Joellene had brought over. I put on a little make up and unwrapped my hair knowing my mother had stylists who were probably handling everyone else first. I took the bench across from my parents wanting it to just end so they would stop whispering and we could get on our marry way. “So, who starts first…. I’m not sure what you want to know. I mean if you already know stuff why do, I have to even say anything?” I asked watching them as they sat up straighter looking all business like. “Well how about the beginning and why you didn’t tell us about why you and Max really broke up?” “Did we make you feel that weak that you couldn’t tell us what was happening or because we are friends with his parents we’d not take your side” they were both asking questions like I was on trial or something.
I took a few minutes to just breathe and think before I spoke since usually, I would just open my mouth and shit would come flying out. Especially when I felt like I was in trouble. “I told you it was mutual and well it was, and it wasn’t because I had broken up with him ½ way through his senior year. He wouldn’t take no for an answer and… no you didn’t make me weak he did every time I caved in and saw him on nights he was stressed. As his dad pushing harder with sports and deciding on what career, school and college applications he was working on. We were and still are toxic for one another with my temper and his mixed it’s like oil and vinegar. We are both in the wrong for things that happened and I’m not saying this because I’m weak but because I’m not weak and have grown from everything that has happened” I said taking a break to breathe.
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