Chapter 87
As we drank more, I thought I was home free as the 3 of us just sat there in silence drinking and me talking with my brother as my girls lay in their swings. "Have you.... you been to see them since they have been there?" my father asked looking up from his desk as he typed roughly on his keys. I looked at them and smiled before answering "No I have not been able to bring myself to doing it. I've been sent photos to my private PO BOX and have them at home in their boxes. I did get to spend a few hours holding them after I gave birth to them and the doctors pronounced them dead. It was the turning point for me as I finally got away from Max and started my training at a friends’ private gym. I've grown a lot and learned about how strong a woman can really be if she puts her mind to it..... now can we please go home so I don't feel like I'm trapped out here against my will? I feel like I'm being ganged up on and have no one in my corner right now..." I said and immediately regretted it since I was not alone by any means as I had my brother and my girls.
After taking a few minutes to breathe and collect my thoughts I let the dream state fade away keeping my brother there with me. I was surrounded by all 3 Ethan's that had carried the name down from generation to generation. My grandfather and father both finally gave in, and we headed back to the house. "If you tell mother, can we just do it after my friends leave if I even still have them when this is all over. I don't want them thinking that our friendship didn't mean anything to me when it is the only thing that kept me from doing a lot of stupid shit" I begged as we headed inland. My father wrapped his arm around me and pulled me in and held me close and I could feel how fast his heart was beating. Almost as fast as mine and somehow it helped that I wasn't the only one worried about what we were going to tell my mother and grandmother. "So, did you tell your parents about the Psycho-therapist/medium you brought with when you joined us all here?" I asked my father wanting all the attention off me for the time being.
My grandfather cleared his throat as we got off the boat and onto the dock. "Well, my dear no he didn't because he was worried about you and that's the only thing that was on his mind. As for the medium part well that's a new one for a psycho-therapist to add to a resume, but hey whatever helps pay the bills I guess. I'm just confused on why bring her here unless you're sleeping with her, which would mean that the marriage is surly over without any fighting for what you want. I know you love that girl since the day you both started with hormones.. ha and probably even before that since your mother and I along with her parents caught the two of you snuggling and kissing at only shoot I think it was like 5. They of course said that they had seen mommies and daddies doing it and thought it would be ok" my grandfather said laughing causing my father to groan.
My father rolled his eyes "Oh yes and we got a talk about what grownups do is grown stuff and had to be married first... then I think we were in like the 1st or 2nd grade and had a pretend wedding at school. Ha then we got older and hated one another as boys and girls usually do until hormones kick in. We still stayed friends since our parents were such good friends but had our other friends that we'd hang with. But towards the end of middle school I had just woke up one day went to school saw your mother and it was all over for me. I dated a couple girls after she had turned me down, but then high school came, and she was telling her friends how she had a crush on me since grade school. Long story short it got back to me and by Christmas our freshman year we were together again and well you know the rest!" he said, and my grandfather couldn't help but laugh. It was almost like the story of Maxwell and I minus the abusive part and the good parts is what made me still love him in my own way, but I could not forgive myself for letting him continue to hurt me even after he promised he wouldn't.
Before we got off the boat I talked a little more getting it off my chest. "Well I hope one day I get that chance again to find love so pure and innocent, but I will never be weak again because I'm still learning how to clean that part up. I don't think it'll go away of course at least not until I forgive myself for letting things happen and not protecting my babies. I have no one else to blame but myself and Max which he finally truly apologized, but I know it took a lot for him to even admit it to himself. That he was even at fault and I know I can only take it at face value since he's yet to forgive himself for the things he did" I said more to myself than them and once again I was giving Maxwell credit for even apologizing. We entered the house with my friends and family laughing and having a good time talking about this and that along with the wedding that my mother had officiated over. Savannah and Bruce were also busy back and forth talking about their latest things from work to their love life. "I agree with Savi... if you can be lucky enough to find that kind of love so young why not go for it. Don't let go of the things you dream about though or you’ll be living for that other person. Relationships are about compromise, but I guess the two of you have figured out how to work that out. I mean you have enlisted into the marines together and actually made it through the first steps of it. I'm sure pops would love to tell you just how hard it was and how it's even harder now" Bruce said as he walked towards us after noticing we had come in.
After taking a good look around and listening to them all talk I was not in the mood for any more stories and just needed a quick bite to eat, a shower and then bed. "You all enjoy that while I grab something to eat and then head to bed... I've been up far too long and I'm getting restless and cranky" I admitted heading towards the kitchen where something was cooking and pulled me in. I was as happy that no one told me to stay or forced me to, making it to the kitchen and to safety. Savannah followed me wanting to eat after drinking with me and Bruce and obviously not eating much. "So, what did you and the men talk about out there? You sure were there for like ever and almost had to send a search party" Savannah and I couldn't help but laugh knowing how our fathers and brother could be. "Oh, you could only imagine and of course a whole lot about medicine and what my plans were for college" I hated lying to her but knew that it wasn't just us that had ears and loved to hear gossip. I had given her a look that told her not to ask anything else for the moment as I swirled my finger around in the air. "So you met my bodyguard Sebastian.. hottie right?? You too should talk sometime since you're close to the same age and well I doubt I'll be taking him off to college with me" I said putting the heat on her.
Savannah had started to fan herself that told me she would love to get him beneath her and since we were very much alike in that way. She could get just about any person she wanted there was no doubt we had that same reaction towards the same guy. "Ha-ha ok, ok you don't even have to use words just keep doing those things all night and we'll be just fine. Damn I've missed you like crazy and it's like having an older sister whom, gets me so well" I whispered and hoped to God that no one else heard it. Savannah peeked out the kitchen door and then asked if I had slept with Catherine too. "Only because I know sexual tension and that girl had some shit going on the moment you walked in. I'm assuming you two slept together?" she asked making a tisk-tisk sound with her voice as though it was a big mistake. "Well, my beautiful niece you're young like me and we're still going to make mistakes, but we just have to remember to learn from them. It's going to be alright though I mean eventually that is, since I can tell there's a lot of shit happening in this place!" she said as we got into dinner that was cooling on the counter. "Oh man Greta is going to kill us for not letting this cool a little longer, she takes real pride..." "ahhhh you two are in big trouble for sure now!" Greta said as she busted us but laughed and gave us bowls and spoons. Not but 10 mins later Catherine, Nicholas, Jose and Asher joined us in the kitchen and grabbed a bowl of the homemade potpie that we were digging into.
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