Chapter 79
Ethan was in my ear calming me down knowing I was ready to completely break and if I did, he might not be able to help me or get to me in the way he needed to. “Mia… deep breath and close your eyes… focus real hard and look down” he said softly urging me to do just that. It took all the strength I had to close my eyes as Max and his whole family were crying and staring at us. Once my eyes were finally closed I listened to Ethan’s voice as it cleared the space in front of me as it was clouded with the energy that filled the room clouding me from being able to see or since my children who had been there the whole time. They were now a little bigger close to the age they would be if they were alive and here with us now which made me smile and bend over to pick them both up, but wasn’t sure what was happening as I stood there with everyone. I was calmer the moment I had let myself be open and listen to Ethan as he helped me to create that exact moment to help me rein in my temper. “Mia… Mia snap out of it” the sound of my father’s voice pulled me back but this time I was calm and could still see Ethan and the twins as he stayed connected and part of the moment keeping me strong. I smiled as I looked up at him and everyone else and I knew by the look on their face’s they were confused.
The smile didn’t fade even though I tried as I refocused on the people around me and I blinked a couple times. “Umm sorry, what did you say I was ummm never mind what I was doing” I said as I felt the girls close and saw them at my feet. “Your mother asked you a question….” “Honey it’s fine give her a min she has been through a lot today, just like the rest of us” my mother said looking at my father and then to Maxwell and his parents who were still on the line. “I was just wanting to know if you have any ultrasound photos of your own or…” “Mother I have a few things back home that you can see when we get there if you’d like” I said softly and then thought of an idea and looked at Maxwell and his parents. “Hey, Max can you do me a favor and take a snap shot of the photo with your phone or iPad and send my parents the photo on their phones?” I asked wanting them to at least get a chance to see the photo like Michelle and Bradly.
Michelle had not let it go since Maxwell had pulled it out and only let it go long enough to let Maxwell, take a quick copy by scanning it and sending it instead. My father quickly printed it out from his printer that made everything better quality if the quality was crap to begin with. He passed a copy to my mother as he held one in his hand and stared at it and watched my parents go from happy to sad/angry, to happy again in the span of just a few hours. I figured that now was the perfect time to end our Video chat with Maxwell and his parents and said goodbye to them as they were all still focused on the photo. “Max take care and see you when I see you ya?” I said before hanging up and trying to remind my parents that there was a party happening for two of my best friends. Amelia and Katherine were still very much there along with Ethan who were watching our parents and their grandparents too and looking at the photo with them.
There was a knock on the office door a short time later letting us know that we had all been behind closed doors for well over 2 hours now and everyone was concerned. I unlocked and opened the door to Catherine who was looking at me as though I was a stranger to her or that something was horribly wrong to keep us all in the office for so long. “Hey we are just about done I’m just trying to get my parents to put down umm a photo that Max just sent over for them…..” “Catie come look…. Come look at what could have been my grand-babies” my mother said cutting me off and I knew then that even opening the door and saying a word was going to take me on another hell of a day. Catherine glared at me the whole way from the door to my parents who seemed to have calmed way down, but still had a lot of hurt and pain behind their eyes.
My father took a seat behind his desk placing the picture under the protective glass almost like it were better there than in a frame. I watched as he placed his hand over the photo as though he was protecting it for some reason and a second later, he was back on his feet and coming towards me. I backed up a step not sure what he was doing or what he wanted from me since I had just been put through hell in the last couple of hours. Along with having to relive the whole thing with my first love and father of my dead children. Catherine and my mother were now both in tears while my father stood in front of me looking at me as though he was trying to see what I was feeling, to read my mind. “OMG….. OK now that we’ve settled all this and I’ve told you every disrespectful thing that happened between Max and I. Can we get back to the festivities that has nothing to do with this and everything to do with my best friend’s wedding?” I asked wanting to get out of the confined place we were all in and I had been in long enough.
Sebastian had yet to say a word since Maxwell and his parents came on the line and the whole thing started and for once he was acting collected and professional. I had not noticed that for the last 15 mins or so I had been holding the neckless/locket in my hand and sliding it back and forth on my neck. “Mia…. You why didn’t you tell me that you were pregnant… yet here I stand with you and your family finding out for the first time that you were pregnant with two baby girls. If I’m not mistaken they’d be what like 6 months old on Sunday… this fucking Sunday of all days…..does our friendship not mean as much to you any more as it does to me. Am I just a covenant piece of ass to you now use me and then throw me away?” Catherine asked as she ran from the room.
Catherine made it hard for me to grab her before she could get away and was almost successful and decided I needed to go after her. Without even thinking twice about it as panic set in as though I might lose her. I yelled for her to stop and as we exited the house, I was on her tackling her to the ground and rolling her to her back pinning her down as I straddled over her. “STOP RIGHT NOW!” I said hissing between my teeth. She started trying to buck me off and moving her head from side to side as I had her shoulders pinned to the ground. “GET OFF ME MIA NOW….” she bit out so harshly with anger and my heart was sinking further and further. “Mia…. Just let her go, this is where you step back and start letting your friends live their lives while you live yours. You don’t owe anyone an explanation do you hear me…” Ethan said as he stood behind me so powerful as though he was really there.
The only thing that got me to move was Nicholas who literally picked me up and moved me off her when she would not stop screaming as though she was being hurt. Jose helped Catherine up off the ground and looked from her to me giving us both the look of “what the fuck is happening” and I just rolled my eyes and threw my hands up in the air. “Fine Cate….. run away for whatever reason you are thinking in your head on why I didn’t tell you about my pregnancy… it was just a decision I had made not wanting to involve anyone at all especially the fact that I kept going back to the one person who kept hurting me time after time. Though I had told you and the guys that I’d left him. I was ashamed of myself for giving in and being in love with someone who I knew all my life and thought would never hurt me. I made excuses for him day after day not to just you and them but to my damn self and I blame him but mostly myself for the miscarriage. So there, Cate you know it all now and so does everyone else who already know things I’d rather have kept locked away from the world and could forget about, yet I live with them haunting me day after day… you are in love with someone you don’t even really know any more…” I stopped when Ethan was there again talking me down.
Ethan was doing his best to talk me off the ledge that I had found myself on again. “Deep breath Mia…. Don’t lose connection with us over here.. come on Mia you can do it and if not for me your brother do it for these two girls. Yes, they should be there in person and as real to you and me to everyone else who can’t see them or me… except for the one person who can’t really hear me but can feel me and gets images when she’s lucky or when people want her help” Ethan said looking over at Jasmine who was standing just far enough away to give us privacy but still close enough to hear what was happening. Nicholas stayed with me while Jose followed Catherine as she ran off and that time I left her be to calm down and vent to Jose. The one person who got her on a level that Nicholas and I just could not see. “Ha well we already know who his wife would be if he were straight…” “Ha-ha funny and we know you’d be mine. So, what is this talk about babies and this and that?” Nicholas asked as we sat on the steps of the porch letting things die down a little before getting back to the party.
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