Chapter 62
Jake started asking me questions and how it all happened, but I just stared not wanting to have to even talk about it. Knowing it would than lead into more shit I did not want to talk about with the other 3 people in the room. "Hello..... Mia.... how about I have everyone leave us for a min, would that help things?" Jake asked when I didn't respond to him. I tilted my head from side to side as though he were talking another language and didn't understand the question. It was like slow motion as my father, mother and Sebastian left the room and my body immediately relaxed. I closed my eyes taking in a deep shaking breath praying that what had just happened was a nightmare. Jake returned and pulled up my vanity chair to sit on and started cleaning up my face with his iodine. It helped clean and help with the stinging that was still there on my face. After a couple more minutes Jake started asking me questions again "How did this happen Mia? Do you hurt anywhere else? The bleeding has pretty much stopped. I'm just going to put stay strips on the eyebrow and clean the lip really good. I'll have you do this 3x a day as well, so you don't get any infections brewing” his voice was calm and inviting calming me further.
After calming deep within I finally gave me what he asked for leaving out the real personal shit. "I—I was on my crutches and moving way to fast and missed a step on the back stairs and here we are...." I said in almost a too low of a whisper for him to hear with Ethan in the background fuming because of what was happening, and I was doing my best to ignore him. Jake sat watching me for a minute before pulling out a stethoscope and held it out in front of me asking without actually asking with words. I sighed and nodded giving him permission and pulling off my shirt showing him where else I was hurting which were now my ribs. "Ok.... well good thing I'm going to listen now want to make sure you didn't break a rib. If you did, not much we can, do but wrap and watch for any changes in breathing. On a scale from 1-10 how's the pain...?" he asked as he slipped the earpieces into his ear and came at me slow. I jerked back anyways feeling uneasy. "S—Sorry…" I whispered closing my eyes and sitting up as straight as possible for him to get a good listen.
25 mins later Jake was finally gone, and my parents were busy talking with him in the hall. Sebastian helped me in the bathroom with getting ready for bed and grabbing my night clothes from the closet. I stood and brushed my hair before putting it back up and brushing my teeth trying my best to move as fast as my body and the pain would let me. All thanks to the adrenalin that was long gone, and pure pain and anxiety were running their course. Jake had wrapped my ribs with an ace bandage to support my ribs that might be fractured. Or just badly bruised and without an x-ray machine there was no telling. My brother Ethan was still very much there pacing back and forth so loud it was giving me even more stress, anxiety and heading for a migraine that would not be good for me. "Jesus can you just calm down Ethan.... I'm fine still alive just back off for the rest of the night ok... I'm serious just do that one thing for me...." I thought to myself so Sebastian would not hear me.
After a few more minutes to myself I finished up at the sink and turned only to see my parents standing at my door watching me along with Sebastian. Who was inside the bathroom waiting to carry me to bed. "Jake went to grab some pain meds and wants you to either take the pills or let him at least give it to you in a shot that will help you sleep. He also wants someone here next to you watching you and you can either choose the both of us. Or Sebastian who well I know he's already seen everything and is professional enough to know his place. Either way the decision is yours but know that the two of us will be at home and up probably most of the night. Don't be surprised if we facetime over here or walk over to check on you ourselves" my father said. Sebastian picked me up slowly into his arms and my head feel to his chest needing the support. I closed my eyes feeling the comfort and familiarity of it.
Sebastian stopped once my parents moved away from the door "Go on you know you want too" he said talking to my parents and a second later my father was kissing my cheek. "I'm sorry for hitting..... you earlier.... that was isn't who I am. I hope you know that, and you should know that... As for Maxwell we will be talking about that when you are feeling better. Don't think I'm letting you or him off the hook that easy!" my father said before walking away. My mother was next as she didn't touch me or say a word yet until Sebastian laid me down on the bed. Just as he had my mother was already in the bed next to me holding me in her arms and rocking me lightly. "Baby.... girl..... tell me what is happening with you.... please!" my mother cried as she rocked me in her arms. I just laid there not having the energy to move away or protect myself.
The rocking had put me to sleep where I felt safe from the world and hoped I could stay until I was better. Ethan was there now holding me with my grandmother's watching over us as though they were our shield from all the pain that was rushing through me. I was glad that in my dream state I did not have to talk to tell them how I felt because they could feel it. They read me without me having to say anything. "I don't understand why you won't tell moms and pops what happened with Maxwell he's a douche bag..." "Ethan...." my grandmother's said to him in a tone that warned him about his mouth. I just smiled at the thought of how he could have said way worse and found being in my dream state made things so much easier to deal with. Feeling safe was my first priority and since hurting my foot I felt like I'd lost that part of me that felt safe.
A second later I felt a sharp pinch in my thigh and my eyes shot right open and found Jake with a needle in his hand that he had just jabbed into my thigh. "Hey... sorry I was trying and hoping that wouldn't wake you since it's easier when you are completely relaxed. I gave you some pain medication and muscle relaxer. Your muscles have now started to spasm and that'll only cause more stress and pain on the ribs" he said when I gave him a dirty look. I was back down but this time it wasn't a dream state, I wanted to be in. Yet a state that brought my nightmares out from their shadows bringing all that pain back. I was not sure why now it was happening when I thought I had slayed all the demons from the last time but got the cold hard reality when Ethan was there with me. Ethan did his best to keep me focused and talk to me "Pushing them deep down and out of sight like you did with me isn't dealing with your demons... so use that power I know you have and handle yourself and these demons that keep you from really living... not that you don't but you don't let people into your heart to love you the way you deserve" he said close to my ear.
The more he spoke the more I was getting angry again hating that he had ignored my plea to be left alone for just one day to heal and rest my tired and hurting mind, body, and soul. I was only strong enough to fight the ones I felt like I could slay easy without a second thought, but the other ones were harder. As some had Maxwell's face and some had my mothers. I was not ready to let those go since they were the ones that hurt the most and the memories burned me all over again making it hard to breath or even think sometimes. "It's just easier to lock those ones away right now Ethan. Who knows maybe I deserved those memories and pain that they both caused me, because look at me now..." "NO......." Ethan yelled so loud that it vibrated through me and shook me so hard it woke me straight up right and into panic mode.
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