Book 2: In the Life of Mia: College Chapter 59
After leaving the dream state of my mothers with my head just not able to focus on the girls or her I did not want to be rude and found my grandmother’s still standing there and smiling. “Yes dear we have whatever you want to know here… we actually have a system and even an automatic process like that of when you think about the question you want to ask or know you just do it and it appears either in a book or on well I’ll show you” Mia closed her eyes for a second and a second later I jumped as a clear screen popped up. I could see nothing from where I stood but as I came around to her side I was able to see words but nothing that was in English and wasn’t even sure if it was a known language any longer. “See here I asked the question of what’s the weather tomorrow supposed to be” she pointed and yet to me it just looked like squiggle lines. “Okay well I don’t even know what that says so ya I’m going to just have to take your word on it” I gave a little laugh. I headed back into my own dream stream and just as I was about to close the door I heard Sharene call out for me and my instincts jumped into action and I was at her dream state door just waiting to hear my name one last time. “MIA….” she said again but this time it was more urgent, and I slowly slipped inside. “I’m here….but I probably shouldn’t be” my tone was low and leaving me almost in tears as I saw her and then I saw that she was not even sleeping but rocking Madeline to sleep.
The actions I had taken to be there and yet I had still been in my own dream stream somehow which kept me transparent and undetected from her, but Madeline could see me as her eyes bolted open when I whispered out to her. “So, you can see me…. I miss you, pumpkin… you are getting so big… I love you both so much and just wish things were different and could be” I sighed as I touched her little hand and she reached up for me. Sharene looked up and right through me as though she felt me but couldn’t see me. “I know baby girl… I miss mommy Mia too… I just can’t keep giving her more and her not giving us more in return. I was willing to wait as long as she needed, but that’s not fair to either of us. That anger in her is not what I want in our lives either and we will be find I promise you that. We’ll be ok and get through this though and just think we’ll see her at Thanksgiving if I still decide to go which it’ll be easier for us since we now live here, but will be staying with nana and papa Ribbonowski for the few days during the holiday. They are great people and even have all your other nana and papa’s coming to stay which is very nice of them since they are going to be having Donnie fly out to Aussy to get them and bring them here. Not to mention your daddy’s’ parents will be coming up from Florida before then to spend some quality time with you. I just now have to decide if having you at the gym daycare is what I really want or if I should get a nanny to keep you here and safe along with teaching you things since you are getting bigger every day” she was almost in tears herself kissing Madeline’s fingers.
Sharene had finally laid Madeline down in the crib and headed for a shower and I followed her wanting to be with her since she had called out for me and was able to control myself from actually transporting my complete body there and possibly giving her a heart attack. I knew I could break the barrier and at least call out her name but was not sure that would be a good idea either since she looked to be getting on just fine without me. “I guess my question for you would be…. Why did you never answer my text message” I whispered softly into the air as the shower came on drowning me out. I watched as she slowly undressed and touched her stomach “I wished we could have all been a family… the future yous..” she whispered. I was now looking at her and wondering so many thoughts “Nope not that, I mean unless she has been with someone which would hurt but she has every right to move on and be happy.. I don’t have any eggs just lying around so I know it can’t be that either” I thought making myself laugh and it echoed in the bathroom. I went completely still as Sharene opened the shower door and listened as though she heard something and right than I just wanted her to be mine again and take the pain I was feeling away.
It took everything I had to just stay away and watch at a glance as she finished up and made her way to her bed at 8:40pm with it being 2:40 am my time. I looked around her room seeing that it was just as beautiful as she was and wished she would have stayed at the house I gave her. I loved her idea’s she had as she once had a dream about which included me in it and what she hoped to one day bring into our lives together. I finally slipped out of her dream stream when I knew I could so easily just lie next to her and truly be there with her if it were what she wanted and what was meant to be. “Come on honey… don’t do this to yourself you are both finally starting to heal and able to even say one another’s names without completely falling apart” my mother’s voice was there behind me and her arms touching my skin. She had been the comfort in the storm that was ready to make my life hectic once more if I let it happen.
My mother being there was a shock since she would have had to jump through different streams to get to me and my separate stream that I had learned to keep separate when needed for these exact reasons. “I know, it’s just my heart hurts so bad….. it might be easier if I knew she was at least dating again or thinking about it at least” I looked to her for answers as we slowly left. “You never know what tomorrow will bring dear and I’d be lying if I said I was happy that you two were over, but the truth is she’s an amazing girl and if you were different and in the right place in your life I’d want you to just go for it and break this barrier you keep and let her all the way in, but you are not ready. She’s a strong young woman and reading her right now I think she’d be perfect for you and be your rock like your father is for me once he knew everything. It’s not easy by any means to tell a normal that you have things about you that you are basically a freak of nature. Your father took me and everything I possess and the abilities I have but blocked out for good reasons.. with that said I’m coming around again as you can see. I just need you to know that I need the time and peace when your brother is born with none of this even though I know how much you all want me to be so open again like you are. As you can see now though everything comes at a price and I just can’t take any chances” she held me tight kissing my cheek and walking me back to my own bed and body.
For the first time in years my mother had stayed with me touching my face as I laid back down with my body and closed it all out to give my mind rest. I woke up the next morning feeling so relaxed and finally for once didn’t wake up in a sweat like I had in almost a month from all the training and the nightmare’s that were part of the tests. “Oh wow…. Only 5:30 am earlier than I’d like but at least it was a good 5 ½ or so hours” I thought out loud as I stretched out naked in my bed. I rolled from the bed and quickly showered not wanting to do any training for just one day since my body was still aching from the day before and I had taken the night off too in my dream streams and they all knew it. I took my time getting dressed and trying on my new winter items I had, had to buy since the weather was now only in the low 40s and almost freezing at night. I put on my warm booties after deciding on my leggings that had valor inside them and slipped on my denim dress that only covered the tops of my thighs along with a black belt that had rhinestones around it. “Wow nice….” I thought as I looked in my floor to ceiling mirror in the closet. I decided to fill my ear piercing holes with hoops and diamonds and as I stood looking at my hair that was now just too much for me I pulled it all back and tied it at a good length. “MIA….. don’t you dare!” my grandmother rang out in an echo of voices as I grabbed the scissors and held them up. I took one last look and even took a picture with my hair and scissors in one hand and my phone in the other to show just exactly I was about to do.
All I could hear as I did the deed of putting my hair between the scissor blades and slowly closed them down were loud hissing in my ear and as I held my hair up in front of my face it made me feel so free. “Yes…. Now I just need to find an actual stylist to do the rest keeping it at this length…” I smile to myself holding up a good 6-8’ of hair. I knew I did not want to just throw it out and grabbed a zip lock bag from inside my bathroom vanity and placed it inside. I wanted to make sure it went to a donation place for anyone who might need it and put it on my mental check list to find the best place to donate it to. By 7:45 am I could hear footsteps and knew it had to be Leona coming to get me up if I wasn’t already so we could do more training. “Come on in” I shouted before whoever it was could even knock and when I saw that it was Bailey he looked very different for some reason as I poked my head out of the closet to see who it was. “Mia…. Ummm well then, I didn’t expect to see all that… I just wanted to let you know that Leona is not feeling well so asked that you two skip the training today, but you both must be thinking the same thing” he smiled. I narrowed my eyes and tried reading his mood before I exited the closet completely and showing off my new haircut.
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