Chapter 118
My father was a quick step behind me step for step all the way out the door and the fresh air letting me take a good deep breath in and was much needed and welcomed. Sharene and my mother found us on the walkway near the theater with me lying on the bench looking up at the sky. “Mia…. Darling how is my sweet baby girl? I can see you are in one of your moods so maybe I should not even bother asking” my mother said as she looked down at me. Sharene sat at my feet on the bench and put her arm over the back of it and looked up at the sky. "Anything good up there today?.....Should I even ask what you are thinking about?" she asked softly. I looked down at her and saw that my parents were walking away to actually give us some privacy. I was not sure why now they wanted to be so kind to give me that. "Clouds.... they can be anything you want them to be.... as for anything being wrong...." I blew out a long held in breath as I sat up and swung my legs around and down. "Not wrong.... just thinking about a lot of decisions. Then if I make the right one for myself, do I end up hurting others in the process. I mean I already know my parents will be crushed as my mother has her ideas of who I should be, and my father is like spread your wings and fly... well sort of. Then.... there's you.... I know you said you could do the long-distance thing, but to be honest I don't think you can. You already got so possessive after only a few weeks being apart and you get angry easy and never saw that with you before. Fuck I don't even really know who you are... you have a daughter, live only God knows where...." I stood needing to walk as my heart started to pound in my chest.
Sharene was about to respond when my aunt Savannah came running towards us and hugged me tight catching Sharene off guard. "There's my favorite niece... and oh what do we have here?" she laughed looking at Sharene. "Ha-ha Savi meet Sharene she's the one who called and you and Bruce ummm answered my facetime while in London. Sharene my aunt Savannah" I said introducing them officially. Sharene put out her hand and Savannah embraced her in a hug instead. "This family does not do handshakes, but they do hugs, and my parents are going to love you and my brother who are actually at the curb waiting with the rest of the group" Savannah laughed as she took us both on each of her arms. "Umm Savi what has got into you? I didn't even have a clue all of you were coming out... I have a super busy weekend with my friends..." I said hoping that I was not being to mean.
Savannah had ignored me though and turned her attention to Sharene instead. "So, are you and my niece an item now? Because I know why her longtime friends are here, but a little odd for a girl she hardly knows to come all the way to New York to see her....." "ha....ummm can we not talk about this right here on the fucking quad of NYU please" I begged cutting Savannah off again. "Savannah.... I can see you love your niece a lot and well to be honest I'm trying to move from friends and right into that special place held for girlfriends/boyfriends.... Mia however is trying to give me all the right answers on why we should not be together, but are also good excuses for us not to be together" Sharene said just finishing up as we made it to the group that included friends, and family. Catherine overheard some of it but pieced things together. "Well, Sharene maybe she hasn't said yes because she doesn't want to admit to herself that she’s into girls in a romantic capacity. Except to just fuck them and leave them wanting more" Catherine said loud and clear for not just the group to hear but everyone who might be walking by and were actually a lot of people. I was starting to get a heavy feeling wanting to just disappear and knew I could. "Mia.... no.... take deep breaths focus on my voice...." Ethan begged knowing that I was still not able to always control my disappearing act. "I'm fine Ethan" I muttered.
A second later I exploded "LISTEN..... CATE THAT IS NOT FARE.... BUT YOU ARE RIGHT I'M NOT READY TO ADMIT THAT I MIGHT BE INTO GIRLS. BECAUSE THAT WOULD GIVE PEOPLE A REASON TO LABEL ME.... I LOVE MEN AND WHAT THEY HAVE DOWN BELOW... THAN THERE IS THE FEMALE ASPECT THAT I APPRECIATE JUST AS MUCH... AND I DON'T JUST FUCK ANY WOMAN CONSIDERING YOU WERE THE FIRST AND SHE WAS THE LAST...." I stopped and walked away needing to clear my head. My friends and family screamed out for me to stop as they trailed behind me and after a minute or two. I finally stopped when the SUVs came along with my parents and grandparents in the back as the rest of my friends and family behind me. Sebastian got out from our SUV and opened the front drivers, door and pointed to it. "Come on, we are on a schedule and your father wants to finish up before dinner" he said with a no, nonsense tone. I got in while everyone else got into the back and did not say a word as Sebastian drove off following my parents and grandparents.
We all toured the few places my father wanted to see for living and I loved the big open space of the loft that he had at the top of his list. Then hated the final one that had 4 bedrooms knowing that my parents would be there all the time. "Ok dinner is next because all this running around has got me starving and I didn't get my usual work out this morning. Also, I doubt I will all weekend...." "I second that.... we have reservations at “Don-Douchea” very lowkey place and my good friend has owned it with his family for years" my grandfather informed us all. We were all still pretty quiet as we sat down for dinner at a restaurant, I figured could have been a spot for one of the local mafia families. Though people still say they don't exist any longer and I juste go with the flow instead of causing anyone or myself stress. "Well, I love a good genuine Italian joint and if I decide that NYU is where I want to attend which it's a possibility...at least I have a place to come" I said taking a large gulp of water.
My grandfather's friend came to the table with his wife, and we were introduced to them. My father had of course made a big deal about me. "So, if she decides to stay here, we hope that when she comes here you just use my card that I'll keep on file...." "Umm father.... I know you'd love for me to decide right now if I'm choosing NYU, but maybe hold off on the whole "I'm putting my card on file" thing and just go with the flow please" I whispered with my begging eyes. I had changed the subject once we all ordered drinks and the rest of our food when I knew they would all pick the course of our night. "Bruce... so how did it go with Giovanni? I hope that it's something you'll be able to do and it's basically the ideas I had running around in the damn hamster wheel of a brain I have. Tell me how you like him too because he's really saved me from a lot of shit and is like a big brother to me. Though he's old enough to be my father" I said as everyone focused on the two of us.
Bruce smiled giving me a mischievous look "Oh, yes I loved the ideas and it's going to be a challenge but I'm down for a challenge.... as for Mr. perfect he's very fawned of you as well...." my father cut his brother off with a loud groan "What do you mean fawned of her Bruce....." "Dude.... chill he's as old as you... he says you 2 have a meeting coming up when you get back... he's a solid guy so relax" Bruce said with a smile trying to ease my father. "OMG.... daddy seriously I don't look at Gio that way.. he was umm is the brother in-law of my OB who ummm had him reach out to me after I had been to see him for an annual visit a couple years back. Anyways this is not a good dinner conversation so it can wait... just know that he's too old for me and there is nothing there nor will there ever be" I said looking across the table at him. I gave Bruce a look of "You are so dead....." and Catherine was whispering to the guys and totally pissed me off. I had heard my name and Sebastian's and was ready to claw her eyes out but was happy that they were next to me so I could scold her quietly. "Please.... Cate would you not talk about that... I really don't need more trouble. Oh, just so you know I haven't fucked him either, not that I haven't tried but he's all about the job now" I whispered right into her ear so softly it caused goosebumps on us both.
Catherine turned to me as my arm was over the back of her chair and whispered back into mine. "That just heated me up down there.... as for what took place and what I told the guy were 2 different things all together. Now chill the hell out before you end up ratting us all out and I know none of us want that. Especially your girlfriend who hasn't taken her eyes off you yet and is staring at us right now” she kissed my cheek before turning back around. I laughed not being able to help the outburst as I turned away from her. Then turned to look at Sharene who was just as beautiful angry as she was calm. "Ummm sorry if you'd all excuse me I need the restroom before I eat..." Sharene and the rest of the ladies all stood needing the same thing and followed close behind as I led the pack.
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