Book 2: In The Life of Mia: College Chapter 6
My father Ethan and mother Amelia stood at their home door and made me close my eyes before we entered the house and I did it just to be able to get inside and get the party over with already and hopefully did not have a bunch of people I didn’t know and would have to entertain. My parents finally opened the door and there were so many people I could not count but they all looked familiar which was a good thing for my anxiety and how I hated entertaining when I was irritated already. A round of hello’s and happy birthday’s rang out as people came up to me and hugged me with my family being the ones to be last as not only my father’s parents and siblings approached but my mother’s step father, his wife, and my aunt Brea who I had hardly said 2 words to when she came to the funeral 2 1/2 months back. My grandparents stood back after they hugged me giving Bruce and Savannah room to get to me and hug me and they stepped aside just as fast. Brea was next and she was hugging me without even a thought and her father Axel stepped up alongside her and hugged me too and the final one was Amber who hugged me and kissed my cheek. “You look really good….” “Yes and so grown up….” “I second that, such a beautiful young lady and living all alone in Oxford” Amber said making me smile as though I were just a little girl or something.
Just as I was about to think that my real friends were not going to ever show up as I partied on with my family and their friends I got a shock of a life time as I went to catch a breather on the front porch and try to make a run for it. “I hope you didn’t think you were getting off that easy now…” Catherine said as she stood with Giovanni and his kids on the driveway after just getting out of the Limo. I ran to her catching her up in my arms and kissing her cheek. “OMG….. thank you thank you…. I wasn’t sure if I’d get to see you while I was here….” Catherine pulled back and looked at me. “I would not dare miss my best friends’ Golden birthday… geesh what kind of friend do you think I am…? Plus, the grand opening of the gym is tomorrow and couldn’t miss that either you know” she laughed, and I slowly put her down. Giovanni was next as he caught me up into his arms and swung me around. “Missed you like crazy woman… you ignored all our calls for the past 2 weeks which was so not cool, but I get it school and studies are more important right now..” he said kissing me hard on the mouth. “Ummm are you or are you not now dating Jaclyn…ya that’s what I thought” I said with a laugh when he groaned. “I wonder who could have told you….” he said back with just as much harshness in my ear. He put me down and I was attacked by his daughter and son who were so big since the last time I had seen them both and got down to their level. “Look at the two of you cutie pies… oh so so cute..” I said before picking them both up at the same time and carrying them in.
Sharene was standing near the door watching us as we approached and by the look in her eyes I knew she had seen the whole thing and could see the wheels in her head actually spinning along with Ethan laughing and telling me what I already knew. “She is like about to explode so you might want to take her somewhere and cool her down” he says laughing and just as though he knew it she exploded loud and in front of the whole room. “SO YOU WERE GOING TO WALK OUT OF YOUR OWN PARTY WITHOUT EVEN A FUCKING THANK YOU, A GOOD BYE THANK YOU FOR COMING BLA BLA AND TO THINK THAT ALL THESE PEOPLE WANTED TO COME SPEND YOUR GOLDEN BIRTHDAY WITH YOU… YOU SELFISH…” I caught her up in my arms and carried her off to the room down the hall slamming the door behind us and locking it. I was thankful for the room since it was a bedroom not an office that had a bed, closet, bathroom and I carried her to the huge walk in closet that was the size of my master room in Oxford. “Damn it…… what the hell was that about, who said I was leaving I just needed some fucking air.. you seriously need to calm the fuck down and stop acting like you are a crazy person….. jealousy is one thing, possession is another, but straight up crazy is something I will not tolerate at all..” I said pushing her against the center island like thing that was perfect for me to pin her against.
We were both now breathing hard with fire and smoke at its all-time height “I do….ok I do… I just it’s hard ok…. I know you actually need me to fucking say the damn words that seems to just roll off of your fucking tongue so easily….” I backed up as I blurted out that I did love her minus the words. I was now in panic mode as my heart felt like it was exploding again but this time in a way that felt good but also frightened me. Sharene was at my back wrapping her body around mine and sobbing. “So then just say them to me if you feel them… and I love you doesn’t just roll easy off my tongue since you are the 2nd person besides my family and daughter that I’ve ever said it to in that way. I know how hard it is to admit that you are in love with someone let alone a woman…. Shit I hate labels just as much as you do, but to be honest I never said we had to say we were gay and classify ourselves” she whispers through breaths of hot air at my back. I pulled her around to my front needing her to see me and my eyes when I said the 3 words that I thought I would never be able to say out loud to anyone ever again. I still was not even sure I could do it as I looked at her until I felt my family on the other side gather around me. “Mia, you can do this angel… you need to put the pain of your mothers break down and her cruelness and hate she once had for you away,” “along with the pain and anger that Maxwell showed you after you fell for him even though you never told him” “Ya sis listen to grams they are right…. I was wrong and only because I did not fully understand until now” Ethan said along with our, grandmother.
The weakness took over and I sank to my knees bowing my head for a moment and Sharene stepped closer running her hands through my hair before tilting my head up with her soft touch of her hands holding my chin to look at her. “I—I am in…. love with you…. so much that it’s completely shattering me right now…but not for reasons you might think. There are….. just so many things about my life…that I still can’t share with you and I wanted to be able to share myself completely before I said I’m in-love with you” I whispered and she was on her knees with me. Sharene was crying again but this time they were happy tears. “Say it again….this time sup….er…..slow…..” she whispered softly in my ear. I gripped her tight in my arms taking her beneath me not sure if I could say it again as the pain of it was like glass breaking over my sensitive skin. “I—I am…. In…..love….with….you…” I gasped out between kisses that I had to fight for every step of the way. I would have loved to say those words to her over dinner or in bed during a more intimate moment but didn’t want to be such a high school girl in bed saying the words for the very first time.
Sharene had taken me all over the closet in every position we could possibly get into until there were loud knocks on the bedroom door and my parents asking to be let in. I hurried into my clothes while Sharene got back into her sundress that took a split second to do which irritated me when she laughed watching me fumble with mine. “It’s like you are getting caught in someone’s closet and only have seconds to act… horrible…. Haha” she laughed and I attacked her picking her up and carrying her to the bedroom door where I finally opened it. “Hi girls, ummm sorry to interrupt but we have a full house and Maddie is fussing and we have all tried feeding her, playing with her and it’s just not working…” my mother said frowning. Sharene slid down my body to her feet and went towards the room that held her now screaming daughter who sounded like she was being killed or something. After a few mins we could still hear Madeline screaming bloody murder and Sharene was now a little panicked as we approached the room, and she was coming towards me with a look of. “WHAT DO I DO” and I wasn’t sure myself on what to do but something or maybe the someone’s that had been keeping me from jumping off the deep end. I put out my hands and the whole room fell silent as Sharene rose a brow and handed me Madeline when I had only held her a handful of times since meeting her. “Shhh… ok, ok baby girl tell Mia what’s wrong…” I softly whispered as I held her over my shoulder patting and rubbing her back.