Chapter 33
Once the Capt. left, I thanked Sharene for her hospitality “Maybe when it dies down a little this evening we can talk some more? I’d love to get to know you more if that’d be ok. Unless this makes you feel uncomfortable, I would understand. I guess I better let you get back to your job and convince myself to re-join the other guests and my parents” I smiled sliding out of the booth waiting for Sharene to follow. She was on her feet and right in front of me almost close enough for me to reach out and pull her close. Just for a brief moment, but I wasn’t sure if I was reading the signals correctly or if it was just a vulnerability that I had.
Sharene smiled and reached out taking my hand that I kept at my side in a fist and stepped closer. “Hey… no need to flinch…. I would love to have another moment with you. You are very compassionate. I’ve been watching you since you got on the yacht and of course when you got off” she whispered into my ear as our chests touched. She raised herself up on to her tippy toes causing me to freeze as I took in a deep breath taking in all her intoxicating smells. Something I had never smelled before making it that much more exotic to me and I was not sure what had come over me. A second later I found myself wrapping my free arm around her back and my other hand at her cheek and finally the last thing was my lips on hers. We both pulled back and looked at one another not saying a word. I could see I had taken her by surprise let alone myself. I could tell by the look on her face she was either uncomfortable or in shock. The only thing I could think of to do was turn and walk quickly up the steps. I was now in the corridor that led me two ways and I chose the one that would get me to a peaceful place. A place I would be able to be left alone even if it were short lived. As I walked the hall, I found my room which was the main master room that my parents made me take even though theirs was not that much smaller. Mine though was one that spoke volumes and overlooked the front or bow of the yacht. One that had just amazing architectural parts to it. Then to top it off there was the view that I could not get enough of even if I wanted too. I took a break from the busy day and a quick shower to get the day washed away. 15 mins later I exited the bathroom and not surprised to find my mother sitting in the window seat bench area and waiting for me to emerge. “Hello mother. Yes, I know father I’m sure wants to get me back out there so you can open your gifts. I just needed a down moment to relax and get the sweat of the day off me. Just get a little alone time since I have not gotten much of it. I have a few gifts for you in my bag over there if you want to open them here with just the two of us. I mean that’s what I would like since they are personal, but I do have a bigger gift that should be arriving in the next few days at the house” I said as I slipped on some clothes and out of my robe. My mother didn’t say anything at first just watched me as though she was seeing me for the first time with pure love and hope in her eyes. I wasn’t always there, but knew she loved me and only wanted the best for me. Once I finally stopped moving around the room and sat on the bench at the end of the bed my mother crossed her legs like a lady and placed her hands over her knee. “You are my best friend, my one and only child still living and I’m not sure if you really realize how much love I have for you which is entirely my fault. I mean I act more like a friend than a mother and I hope it’s not too late to be that for you. Minus not changing the friendship part which means more to me than you’ll ever know. I guess it is confusing because maybe I’m not saying it right or not in the right way. Anyways…. You are my precious little baby still and I guess I still can’t let go of that even though you’re going to be 19 in a few months. Going off to college leaving me behind all in such a short amount of time. I’m scared that once you leave you won’t want to come home. That’ll leave me all alone and that loneliness is what scares me the most” my mother was really letting it all out something she never did keeping everything close to her heart.
It had taken me and all my strength as I listened to my mother talk and talk and talk some more for what had to be at least an hour or longer without interrupting. It was unlike me and knew it was all thanks to my brother who had been there by my side the entire time. “Look at me I’m doing all this talking and you’ve barely said a word. That is so unlike you, but it is much appreciated since usually I nor can anyone else ever get a word in” she giggled and then sniffled as she had been crying here and there as she spoke. I sat Indian style on the bench and put my elbows on my thighs before speaking. “Well, you can thank Ethan for that I think, with him here with us he keeps me grounded. I know how you feel and being lonely when I felt like that most of my life since Ethan died. I hate admitting it and even though I have so many people in my life who love me and care about me….. I still have this whole inside my heart and again a big part of it has to do with Ethan. He’s slowly starting to fill in that whole the more I open myself up to him. Actually….. that’s why I blacked out earlier I had taken a deep breath and cleared my head needing to just let it all be free space up there… and in doing so it was like my past was flashing before my eyes and took me up to the spot before Ethan had died.” I stopped when my mother started sobbing uncontrollably.
A second later my father was barging through the door. “What is going on in here….. damn it Mia….” “NO…. Ethan stop it’s fine…I—I am fine we are just really…..” My mother couldn’t even finish her sentence as my father went to her side. Before I knew it, I had both of my parents sobbing as I told them when Ethan had appeared to me and how I had been feeling since he had. “I’m still trying to figure out exactly how I’m able to hear him, and what these visions are. Or why I’m being pulled to these certain times of my life past, present and what I could only assume are the future. I don’t have a clue on why it’s happening to me, but I’m trying to take every day one step at a time. Trying not to get over charged with Ethan here and there and I think a lot of it has to do with me. I’m sure he’d like nothing but to be here with me 24/7 but it’s weird to me right now. It’s freaking me out too when I’m thinking to myself and then he answers back. Or when I have my guard down and he sneaks in and says something before warning me” I confessed to them with a little giggle.
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