Chapter 53
I took the time to listen to her and my brother talk and then finally brought out the next person which was my grandmother Mia Simone my mother’s mother. Who I’d only met briefly when I was 5 years old and only remembered little things as I grew up. “Good to see you again my dear and for you being here trusting your own intuition to let this dream state happen. Amelia is right we’ve been here watching over you and will continue to do so, but most important thing is that you believe in this just as much as you are in this exact moment. We will continue to be here when you need us and…. We have more things to get through eventually, but I think for now this is a good start if you ask me” Mia said as she took her seat next to me and holding my other hand. I took my sweet time in the dream state for as long as possible taking it all in and testing my boundaries on what I could and couldn’t do.
There was no limit which was like a whole new thing to me. I felt like I had been drugged a little for a moment as I was feeling the best I’d ever felt. I was so open like Ethan had known just the right moment to pull me in. I was enjoying myself and the views I was able to see but knew that a lot of it had to do with my imagination. It made me more comfortable in my surroundings. “Wow, this place is like perfect…. Why can’t I just stay forever? I won’t end up disappointing my parents and people who see me as… I don’t know an addiction, so they say. Why did it have to be Ethan and not me to leave or would it have made a difference in the hell I’ve gone through since the day he left us… I am really trying to understand the best I can. I know in time I will learn more, but sometimes I put doubt in myself about how strong I really am. I know every day is a new day and a new learning experience but at times I feel it is not fair. I know I have to grow up sometime but right now I’m still testing my limits I mean isn’t that what life’s all about….” I was in the middle of talking when I was jolted out of the dream state with pressure to my biceps.
My parents, voices coming through clearer than ever “MIA…… please baby wake up” I could hear my mother crying and my father trying to calm her down. I popped my eyes open and saw Jake above me and white lights in my eyes thanks to his little pen light. It took me half a second to realized what was actually happening, but I finally blinked up a couple times in confusion. Then got pissed “FOR FUCK, SAKE WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT I WAS FUCKING SLEEPING….” I hissed through clenched teeth shooting straight up so fast that I jolted myself backwards and hard against my headboard. Jake stepped back to just watch from a distance while my parents sat at the edge of my bed with my mother taking charge. “Mia darlin’ calm down… you have been sleeping for a solid 8 hours. Sebastian said he came to check on you every hour or so….” “Then I came over myself to check on you after you had been sleeping for 5 hours straight so unlike you and you seemed fine so left you. Then Sebastian called the house asking for Jake to come right away saying you were pale and were now sweating..” my father said with a worried tone to his voice.
I looked at the clock and saw that it was now 10:30pm and well passed dinner. I felt like I was only in the dream state for maybe an hour or so but wasn’t sure how time ticked in the dream state. “I’m sorry to have worried you all, but I’m fine, just was exhausted, and look see I’m fine right doc?” I ask him directly. Jake stepped to the end of the bed so he could see me eye to eye “Well yes blood pressure was a little low and heart rate too. No fever or anything and your pupils are reactive to light so by my training you are fine, but I should really change your dressing” he said with a tone that told me he wasn’t too concerned as of yet. Sebastian was knocking on the door 15 mins later just as Jake was finishing up with the bandaging and giving me Excedrin for my headache that was brewing. “Hi sweets just thought you might be hungry, and your father asked me to bring this up and make sure you ate it. He’s taking a call that just came through at the house and you have a few people down there asking to see you if that’s alright?” he asked the last part more to Jake and my mother looking for permission. I sighed heavily and rolled my eyes as I got a little more comfortable as he brought me my food with the tray and all. “I am my own person and old enough to give you an answer if people can come see me or not… I wish you’d all stop fussing over me now that you can see I’m fine” I scolded him. Sebastian and Jake both backed right up and left the room after my mother asked them too. I was just feeling weak but rested well enough to tolerate her and others. “Sorry… I’m just not used to being down and I just really needed sleep especially when I did not get much the night before” I said softer to my mother as she cuddled next to me in the bed.
All parts of me wanted to tell her what I’d just been dreaming about but wasn’t sure if she’d believe me. Not to mention if I said something now, I’d be so open and vulnerable that if she would say something hurtful it would probably affect me in some way. Something deep down had told me at some point I would have to pull her into my world with the experience’s I had just witnessed. Ethan of course was there even more then he had been since the first day and it was like a familiar feeling that I had unlocked from my childhood. When he was still alive and even after “Maybe he’s right…. They are all right…Ugh” I thought knowing he could hear me, and I could hear him and now even see a silhouette of him. It of course I was not too sure if that’s exactly what I was seeing. “Yes, we are right and so are you, I am here now more clearly now that you’ve taken the first step and I’m so damn proud of you” he whispered with such love in his voice. I leaned into my mother letting her wrap me in her arms holding me tight and close with me just relaxed as ever. I did not move away from her like I usually did after only a few minutes.
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