CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
“TESSA'S POV”
I opened my eyes and shut it immediately, the bright light giving me migraines that could kill if death hadn't just rejected me.
The intense fatigue and weakness I felt as I opened my eyes in the darkness made it difficult for me to react to the pain I felt all over my body.
I gradually lifted my head a little bit to survey my surroundings and for a moment, everywhere was empty but I turned sideways and there was the most powerful man in the two planets we know about, lying on the ground and sleeping away.
I had to intentionally lock my jaw as it had split open in shock.
“Xavier?” I called out, trying to wake him up but my voice sounded so tiny and strange and I doubted he heard me so I tried again, this time with more force but I refrained from doing that again because of how my headache went an octave higher.
Thankfully, he stirred up and sat up immediately.
“Tessa! You're awake! Thank the great old gods. You scared the shit out of me!” He exclaimed and for a moment, I wondered if the process had affected him instead of me.
“Yea, sorry about that. I wasn't thinking straight. Why are you on the ground? You didn't want to sleep on your bed?”
“There's no need to be sorry. I should have known the venom in your system would have serious reactions and insisted on Theresa staying with you. And I definitely couldn't leave you all here by yourself after what you went through,” he explained but I still couldn't wrap my head around it.
I guessed that he was trying to convince me to let down my guard so the job would be easier for his alien. I lay back down and pretended to sleep because I wasn't going to let his plans work.
I couldn't believe I'd tried to off myself, I don't even know how I was going to face my parents.
“Um, I'll go get the doctor. I think he might need to apply more anesthesia so you don't feel the pain that much,” he said as he stood near the hospital bed where I was lying on.
“Seriously, Xavier. Drop the act, it's not gonna work,” I snapped in irritation and even though my voice was low, it carried the venom I had infused into it, unwilling to participate in whatever game he was playing.
“What do you mean? I'm not playing any games with you. I'm just gonna get the doctor, just wait,” he said as he ran out of the door.
Yea right. Like I was gonna believe anything he was saying.
I still couldn't believe I'd enjoyed the way his alien devoured my mouth last night without mercy. This felt like a betrayal to myself and everything I knew about him and I stopped fighting the pain that had engulfed my body as I knew I obviously deserved it.
If he's going to have me by controlling my mind or forcing me to agree with it, that's different but he wasn't doing anything like that and I had lost complete sense of where I was and allowed myself to get gobbled up by his sweet mouth.
Ugh! I shouldn't even be thinking about him.
Thankfully, the doctor ran into the room with a stethoscope and three nurses in tow.
“Thank goodness you're fine. You've been out for a good three days and it's been hell trying to figure out what was keeping you in coma,” he explained as he began checking my vitals.
“Three days?” I exclaimed in shock. Here I was thinking it was just a scratch.
“Yes, you cut deeply into your arteries and stopping the blood was only the easiest part of saving you. I know it wasn't your fault and all but please don't ever do that again. I'll get you a therapist once you are discharged,” the doctor said to me in a reprimanding tone.
“But I feel fine now. I don't need a therapist,” I argued but my voice was too weak.
I didn't want to talk to anyone who would go back and tattletale to Xavier; it made no sense.
“You don't have much of a choice, I'm sorry,” he said as he instructed the nurses to put more drugs into my bloodstream.
“As usual,” I grumbled in annoyance.
Immediately they cleaned up the place and took away the wraps and everything, my Momma literally ran into the room and Anna was pushing my Dad right behind her.
“What were you thinking!?” She screamed, tears pouring out of her eyes which unleashed mine and we were a crying mess, not caring who was in the room with us.
It was crazy how this whole process turned me and my Momma into big cryers which we never were. I couldn't count on one finger how many days I'd gone without crying over one thing or the other.
“I'm so sorry Momma. I don't know what I was thinking, everything just overwhelmed me in one moment and it seemed like the only thing to do. I feel so terrible for not thinking about you guys and how it would affect you,” I pleaded with her, hoping she'd forgive me.
“It's not just about us, Tessa, it's also about you. This is just a page in the big book that is your life and there are definitely pages with happiness and joy and the memories that would wipe all of these away,” Momma said as she wiped my tears with her shirt.
“Your mom's right. You are going through so much and His Majesty explained that the venom in your system clouded your judgment but don't ever feel like life's not worth living. You're important, you matter and you have so much to accomplish for your world. Now chin up, no more of this crying business. Anna has been begging you to wake up for days now,” My Dad said but I just kept crying.
“Oh Anna, I'm so sorry,” I said because I couldn't imagine how all of this would have affected her. I'd seen how our family nearly broke when Brendan was killed and I nearly did the same thing to myself. Anna would have hated me for doing that to her.
How would she have survived her SOS experiment knowing that it took my life? I have all of this hatred because of how the people I'm supposed to buddy up with took my brother from.
I couldn't stop the immense guilt I felt but I was beyond happy I'd survived it. It gave me hope that I still had a chance.
“It felt like you suddenly became this selfish person Tessa. You always thought about everyone but yourself and I just wanted to shake you awake because this wasn't you. But they explained how much pain you were in and everything that's been happening and I just don't know how you get the strength, Tess. You're amazing,” Anna said to me and I didn't believe I could ever find happiness but in that moment, hearing my baby sister recognize a strength I feared I'd lost, it made my heart soar
“Thank you guys, but she needs to rest now. There's so much drugs in her system and you know the wedding is happening soon so she needs the space to get better. You can come back in a few hours,” Xavier said to my family who all turned to look at him with irritation.
“What wedding? You fixed a date while I was in a coma? Are you that desperate to be recognized as the most powerful man in the world? And here you were, pretending to have changed overnight,” I lashed out, all my emotions culminating in a wave of nausea and as I felt the urge to throw up, I began having a coughing fit.
“Doctor!” he screamed and quickly went outside, and immediately he came back with the doctor, they gave me an injection without even caring how much it hurt and my world went dark again.
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