Chapter 43
Enoy pov
Staring out the window watching the stars fill the sky I wonder why I am here. I have been staring out this window for so long. I have been left alone for what feels like days. To be honest, the less time I am around Ren the better. She does not like me one bit and hates that I am mated to her brother. She told me over and over I am not good enough. But Loki is always there to counter that by telling me I am so much more special than even I know. I dought that. Lately, I have been feeling something is off around here but I don’t know what it is. The longer I am left alone the stronger the feelings get.
Yesterday I overheard wren and Loki fighting over someone but I don’t know who. Loki kept saying “I have to take her to him. Do you know how in debt he will be to us? We could have anything we want. Forget being the alpha of the black rose you could rule them all. Think about it every wolf under…..” “what are you doing here? Are you spying on my brother and Loki?” Ren’s high pitch ear bleeding voice comes from behind startling me. “n..no I was just looking for Wren he said we would have lunch together today?” I stumble out bowing my head to her. I can feel the sneer directed at me. “change of plans slut. I am having lunch with my brother you can eat alone in the kitchen with the mice.” she seethes out shoving me, knocking me down. Something inside me is clawing to get out but I just swallow and nod. Slowly I stand limping my way back to my room. I am no longer hungry.
I was so wrong about mates. I had this fairy tale idea in my head about mate. Hearing how much my father loved and still loves my mother ruined me. Watching my uncles and the blacks all these years. Then when Jaz and Michael finally pulled up their big wolf pants and found what they had hoped for so long. I watch as this takes no shit from anyone she-wolf melt into his arms. Then to see a wild wolf bowing to someone was almost life-changing. I mean we all knew Jaz could talk Michael down in just about any situation. But when she was able to make his wolf stop and listen faster than my father I could. It made the whole mates are a whole different relationship. One so deep even the wildest of wolves can be tamed. But that was stupid little pup fantasy. The truth is my mate doesn't really like me. How do I know? I can almost taste the hate he has for me. The more his sister hates me the more he pushes me away or says hurtful things. If I could walk out the door I would but the bond my wolf feels keeps me here.
My wolf has been quiet lately I have no idea when I shifted last. We can go a while without shifting but too long and it's not a good thing we could lose our wolf. I love my wolf even if some call her a black hole. Come to think of it I have yet to see anyone here shift. Do they need to shift often due to the cold and snow? Anytime I am allowed outside I want to shift to stay warm. In the back of the kitchen, I am sitting in my corner. Nibbling on a stale piece of bread. I know I should be eating more I just am not that hungry right now. I like this spot no one bugs me or even comes to look for me. What I didn’t expect was to see a girl I know I know sneaking around. I want to follow her to find out what she is doing but I fear what would happen should Loki or wren come looking for me. I don’t know why she's sneaking but I bet it's for a good reason. When she passed by me I smelled wren on her. My heart is breaking I know I shouldn't be upset he is an alpha they have needs. but right then there was a snap in my chest. My wolf roared out so loud. The whole house shook but then I felt a strap around my chest squeezing tighter and tighter. Black dots dance at the edge of my vision as everything started to blur. The last thing I saw before darkness took me was Loki's questioning face.
Cold. So cold. Why am I so cold? Rolling over and off the small pad, I was laying on hitting the cold hard frozen dirt floor. “ugh” all the air in my lungs left me gasping on the ground like a fish out of water. No wonder I am cold I think as I look around the small room or I mean cell. I am now locked in a cell I am guessing is under the pack house. Or well main house as they call it. Why am I being locked in here? I hear the door open down the hall but instead of getting up and looking, I scrambled back on the cot. Keeping my back to the bars I close my eyes and just listen. “how long will she be out?” Wren asked “no clue I had to increase the dose. Keep her here until I figure out a strong enough potion to keep her wolf locked away. I can't have that mutt ruining everything. Then we can head down to the Winters castle and hand her over. We both will have everything we have always wanted. And the best part is no one will be able to do anything about it now that we have her not even the master.” his laughter sends chills down my spine. Who is the master? And why do they want to take me to the Winter's castle? Too many questions and no one here to talk to about it. I hear metal scraping on the floor down a little way “eat up mutt need to get your strength back for when its time to leave this hell hole.” another scraping just outside my cell. “when she wakes she will be hungry let's hope this first test works.” he chuckles as they start to walk away. Once the door shut again and it was quiet I sat up and looked to see a steaming bowl of something. My stomach rumbled so I slowly crawled over to the bowl. Just as I was about to grab it a horse whisper comes from somewhere in the dark “I wouldn't eat it if I was you. They put things in the food here and trust me you don’t want what that does to you. If I was you I would take it to the back corner and dump it trust me you don’t want what they plan for you.” something about his voice made me listen to him. So I do what he said and crawl back to the cot leaving the bowl by the bars again this time on its side. I want to ask this voice so many things but nothing comes to mind. “you are from the black rose pack?” “yep. Who are you?”
“I am no one anymore.
