Chapter 30
“why? That’s what I want to know Allie why?” the alpha asked me. Whimpering I say nothing I can feel the anger rolling off of him. Curling in on myself more I feel the tears streaming down my cheeks falling to the ground under me. Why is he doing this you would think he would be happy now that he can be free to be with that she-wolf. A small red wolf jumps between us growling at him. only his equal can do that telling me I was right she is his equal. Making myself smaller covering my head. “amber move” he orders the name making me lookout looking for the twin. I had never seen her wolf due to it being cut off from her. Sniffing I try and scent the air but stupid crying snuffed up my nose.
Baring her teeth growling at the alpha is this small she-wolf. His she-wolf. The thought broke me even more. I knew he planned to torcher me how could I think he was different. Is he keeping me around to produce him an heir? Maybe once I give him one he will let me live and leave. I don’t plan to watch him with his she-wolf. Or watch them raise a pup that is mine even if it is the alpha's pup what right would I have to claim it as mine.
I hear a grumble then feel his aura pull back. Peeping I see him walking away. The small she-wolf is pacing in front of me watching him walk away. Once I can no longer see him she walks off so I start to crawl away behind a tree hiding as much as I can. “please come out I have a shirt you can wear.” her sweet voice sings out. Feeling torn part of me wants to see what she has to say the other wanting to run. Looking around I decided I would stand a better chance listening to her so I slowly make my way around the tree. I see a pile of cloth .laying on the ground next to the tree. reaching for it keeping my eyes on her. pulling it back to me I put it on as fast as I can.,
Still half hiding I watch her as she sits down and seems to be thinking. Seeing me she smiles. “why did you reject William?” her question has me shocked as his she-wolf wouldn't see be happy about it. Looking at her confused I remain silent. “you know he is head over heels for you right?” again shocked why would she care? “why?” I whisper out “why what honey?” oh man I so can see why he would choose her. Pulling my knees up to my chest wrapping my arms around my legs. “you know if you let me go right now you guys can forget I even exist.” I try and convince her to let me go. “why would I do that? You know will need you we all do.” as much as I like the sound of him needing me I can't look past his she-wolf looking at me. She's perfect and I’m broken.
“shouldn't you be happy I will be gone?” I ask not looking at her or really anything. “what are you talking about?” she asks sitting down next to me. Confused as to why should ask me such a thing. “well when I leave then the bond won't be pulling him away from you.” trying hard not to let the tears I feel flooding my eyes fall. I am done crying over something I will never have. I want to curse the goddess for letting me feel the bond just to have it taken away. What I didn’t expect was to hear her laughing like really laughing. “you think? Oh, my goddess what gave you that idea honey?” confused I just look at her like ‘really’?
“I'm sorry for laughing, but you have something wrong. First, let's start with I am a very happily mated she-wolf to the beta Johnathan. Not now or will I ever look at will that way. The second will is so head over heels about you. You are all he thinks about. Can you please tell me why you thought otherwise?” with every word she speaks I get more and more confused. So I decide its best to just tell her everything from the start.
“When I met him he did everything to be close to me and stay next to me. I was starting to feel better and my body and wolf liked him close. But I couldn’t help be a little bit scared. I didn’t want to be hurt again. So when the doctor told him marking and mating me would heal me faster I panicked. I have seen what happens when your mate gets tired of you and goes to another. I had enough pain in my life. He kept telling me he wouldn't hurt and I started to believe it. But when we got here he put me in a room at the end of the hall away from him. And he has avoided me since I got here. Today I was coming to talk to him and found that you and he were alone in his office so I figured you and he well you know. So I decided not to be a burden to you or him any longer and leave.” no longer able to keep the tears at bay.
She wraps her arms around me hugging me to her . “oh honey no no you have it all wrong. I was chewing him out for avoiding you. He got the feeling you don’t want him so he has been giving you space to do what you want. He says that he will let you go if that is what you want. But the second your rejection was out he went into a rage of pain and anger. He puts on a good front has for years but he's broken too. Finding you put a spark in his eyes.” she tells me making me just stare at her. Trying to figure out if she's lying. “I promise I am telling the truth. He needs you just as much as you need him. I can see in your eyes that you are hurting. why are you leaving? do you, really want to go?” shaking my head to answer her. “do you, really want to reject him?” I shrug my shoulders. What I do know is I am done being hurt so if that means leaving, then I will.
“you want to know what I think?” she asks and I shrug again like I had a choice in the matter she seems the kind to just tell you even if you don’t want her to. “I think you two need to sit the hell down and talk this shit out. I am tired of his moping and this rejecting him and running is stupid. I am sorry I know you have been through a lot but so has he. Did he tell you about his first mate?” shaking my head I just know when he found her he lost her. Amber then told me the horrible story about how he found and lost his mate in the same second. My heartbreaking for him. Then something clicks in my head and I start to panic. My brother sent a group of drugged and spelled wolves here to distract the alpha so he could steal a young wolf he was paid to retrieve. He is going to hate me more. Panic is taking over. It's getting hard to breathe. He had used a small group of rogues found nearby. The only she-wolf in the group was not supposed to go with but one of the men wouldn't leave her alone with my brother. He was so mad when she was killed. Screaming about losing two paydays by one pack. I think I am going to be sick. I know why his sisters were taken. He really is going to hate me I have to leave before he finds out. Looking around trying to find a way to leave. I see her eyes glaze over and I take that opportunity and I run. Stripping the shirt of willing my wolf forward. I didn’t get far or fully shifted before he was on top of me holding me to the ground. “why please just tell me why. Please just talk to me if this is really what you want after I will let you go okay? Please just talk to me?” I can feel and hear the pain in his voice so I nod spilling everything. Crying and looking at the ground.
