Chapter 52
The room got quiet then the alpha turned to me handing me a glass of an amber liquid. Sniffing all I smell is scotch but I don’t drink it. Walking to the window he asks me if I believed Enoy would still reject me even though she told me she wouldn’t.
With a sigh, he turns and leans against the window ledge. He starts telling me a tale that would give any horror story a run for its money. When a small she-wolf comes with some food and coffee my stomach lets me know how it’s feeling. The alpha took some and took a huge bite. Well if he’s eating it must be safe. Grabbing a small piece I see a platter of palm-sized or well, bite-size cinnamon roll-looking things. They smell amazing. “those are cinnybonnies. Be careful they are addictive trust me I know.” As he slaps his stomach. Ya like there’s an ounce of fat on him.
Taking one I nibble a little. The flavor burst in my mouth and I know my eyes widened in surprise. “good huh?” he asks I just nod. Once settled in the chair again he tells me about Enoy's mother and brother. A memory of Loki talking to wren once when they thought I was asleep. “um alpha I think I might know. I mean not for sure but I did overhear them talking about a guy Loki called the master. He was made that the good-for-nothing mutt killed the girl and her offspring. He had planned to mate the boy to the Winters heir but the alpha sent his mother and father to get rid of her before he let them in the pack.” Looking at the floor as I tell him what I heard.
“I had my suspicions that it was Apollo. But let’s keep that to ourselves for now. We don’t need the pack storming the Winters castle yet. With the night coven still there it sounds like we will need a solid plan. And Enoy.” He chuckles the last out.
Looking up at this alpha my mate's father I wonder if I can trust him. I trust Enoy even if I just met her. She could have charged out seeking the twins and Loki but she didn’t she freed my pack from the kennels. She said he’s a good man. “you can ask me or tell me anything.” He says as he sets his plate aside. Taking a deep breath “I know it’s an old tradition but I’ll my pack is kinda stuck in the old ways. So I was saving myself for my mate but . But . But..” stumbling over my words choking up as I try not to spill tears.
“was it a choice you made or was the choice made for you? I know this is a talk you and her need to have but I will tell you my father didn’t reject my mother for something she had no control over. Enoy is won’t reject you for something you had no control over. Like I said my mother was rapped over and over from the age of thirteen to around eighteen. Enoy knows about her grandmother and has stood firm that you don’t turn someone away because they are a little broken. You pull them in helping find the glue and help put the prices back in place. We have good counselors here I would recommend Clint he’s amazing with sexual trauma. We also have a wolf here who had been taken and abused at a very young age. Clint along with his now fated mate helped him through it. He still has his bad days but he had more good days in the last few years. If you want I can ask him or Clint to meet with you.”
After a few minutes to think it over I nod “could it be not right away I mean I’m not sure I’m ready to talk about it right now sir?” I whisper out “no one will push you. Healing has to be on your terms not someone else. When you are ready I will make those calls. For now, let’s worry about getting you and I still can’t believe it is a polar bear. But ya let’s get you two healthy and back in training. With you being the future Lune of the pack there are several Luna journals or well guides I guess written by past Luna before they passed. If you want to read them they are yours.”
“sir I don’t think I would make a very good line, to be honest.” “Why do you think that?” well I’m not a leader I’m not anything anymore.” “because of the crap you went through?” I nod as I try and keep the tears from falling. “you said your pack is old school right?” I nod “so do you think the goddess would make a mistake?” snapping my eyes to his as I shake my head. “then if the goddess paired you with say a warrior or maybe one of the cooks would you feel you weren’t good enough?” taken back from what he said. Thinking hard before I answer. “no sir.” “why?” “to be honest I wouldn’t have so many relying on me to keep them safe or help guide them when they need it” answering with the most honest answer I had.
The alpha seems to think things over and then stands up. “walk with me won’t you?” hesitantly I get up to follow him. Leaving his office I now see the size of the building we are in. It’s small like most single-family cabins back home. It was when we walked outside I felt confused. “sir where are all the cabins?” “cabins?” he looks over at me. Standing almost as tall as him but I'm so much thinner than he is. “well I've seen at least five wolves other than the group I somehow arrived with.” With a chuckle he places a hand on my shoulder my first instinct was to pull away but something about him just washed away the fear. “no one told you about the pack house den did they?” turning us around to look at the front of the small farmhouse. “guess not” “I’m not surprised sounds like you all had a bit of a mess up there. So the pack house from this level looks like a small single-family farmhouse. But inside towards the back the stairs that lead down into the pack house den. In the wild wolves dig a den this helps with safety from predators and climate control. Warm in the cold months cool I. The warm months. Doing this also frees up all the land for the livestock. Cattle, horses, sheep, and pigs are fully functional ranch farms. As you know the snowpack runs the Samuels fishing company. In exchange, we sell the snowpack prime beef at the beginning of the season.” Nodding along as he turns us to walk down a well-worn path. When I hear screams or a dying seal sound. Looking over I see two huge cows charging. Stopping dead in my tracks I can smell my fear. Placing a hand on my shoulder. “no need to fear these two. They were Artemis cows. The white one is a shadow and the black one is snow. Before you ask Artemis said she named them after their souls no clue so don’t ask.” He chuckles. The cows come to a stop in front of us the stark sniffing the alpha all over the big black one starts sniffing me then starts licking my hand. Pulling away confused. “ it’s the cinnybonnies my wonderful mate got these two addicted to them along with well everyone “ I can see the love he still has for her in his eyes. When the big black cow pushes her head into my chest I couldn’t stop running my hand over her soft fur. “she likes you..” he smiles at me.
He soon directs my attention to a field full of wolves all doing the same moves. Training. “what do you see?” “wolves training?” shaking his head “look again.” Take the time to look it young pups, kids. They are laughing and having fun. “this group of pups are from families who lost one or both parents in some way. See the big guy chasing them around?” I nob “that is Michael. His sister is a beta female Michelle you briefly saw her. They were in a pack pretty far from here. When Mich turned sixteen the beta wanted to mark and mate her. The pack had a habit of taking chosen mates. Her parents took all three kids and ran becoming rogues. At that time they were attacked by a grizzly losing her parents. While running from the bear Micha Michelle and Michael were separated. Michelle found herself half dead on our border but she knew Micha was gone. Michael was lost for almost a year by the time he was found. He was a prisoner in a rogue camp. They did unimaginable things to him. For a boy of five and then six it was a lot. When we brought him back he was a shell of himself and took years to be a kid again. His wolf has never recovered. Michael’s wolf is more feral than most. I tell you this not to frighten you into thinking your wolf might have gone feral. It didn’t if your wondering. Michael did due to his age. I tell you this because his wolf only bows to myself, Enoy, and his mate Jaz. We are gonna go meet him face to face. I want you to watch his eyes. If we see them flash from his green eyes to black then you know if your wolf and you can be the Lune here.”
