Chapter 31
William pov
Pain and anger are all I feel right now. How could she reject me then run away? Why did she do this? It took too long to recover from her rejection that I will not accept. Shifting I jump from my window out of the house. Following her scent. I easily catch up slamming into her knocking her down. I don’t want to hurt her but I want answers too. pressing my body to hers until she submits to me. Once she does I move back some and shift. Commanding her to shift as well. When she curls up in a ball my heart breaks more. I get one word out “why?” before a small she-wolf, I have come to respect slams into me catching me off guard. Snapping my eyes to her she's hovering over Allie protecting her Luna. If it were not for the fact I was so mad and hurt I would have gained more respect towards her. Growling at me until my eyes meet hers “go let me talk to her and calm her down.” she links me. Looking over at Allie I can smell the fear and I hate it. Nodding once I turned and walked away.
I didn’t go too far my wolf side wouldn't let me. I can feel the pain and tear in the bond. My soul frayed at the edges. Slumping against a nearby tree I focus on listening to anything but them. I want to give them privacy.it didn’t take long before Allie is trying to run again. But she didn’t get as far as before I was ready to chase this happened. Pinning her to the ground. Holding her arms above her head as I straddle her. “I deserve answers before you kill me don’t you think?” looking her in the eyes wanting her to know how serious I am.
“you don’t even want me around so why care if I leave?” she sneers at me. “who told you that?” I demand I will have their head. “you did” barely a whisper but I heard it. My heart clenched and dropped out of my chest. Staring at her I try and remember if I ever said something that could be taken that way and I can't find a time I did. “when did I tell you this?” “you didn’t say it in words. But you have made it clear you don’t want me. Is it what the doctor told you about me?” shock that's all I feel is shock sitting back letting her go and just staring at her. “the doctor? I don’t understand little one?” my whole body deflating. “when he told you about the examines don’t worry I get it I wouldn't want me either. So ill just go and you can find someone not” she waves her hands in front of her naked body. If I wasn’t so mad and hurt this sight would have me all kinds of excited and hard. But right now I can't figure out what she's talking about.
“the doctor told me you have a long road to recovery and not to push you. He said marking and mating you would heal you faster but you made it clear that's not what you want so I didn’t. fuck do you know how hard it's been not to mark you and make you all mine? No? Well, let me tell you I have been going crazy. Wanting you all the time knowing you don’t want me. Knowing the only reason you came home with me was so you could heal. Hoping I was wrong but here we are you rejecting me and running from me.” scooting away leaning my back against a tree bringing my knees up resting my arms on my knees hanging my head in defeat.
I hear her sit up but I don’t look over at her. Why am I fighting this I should just let her go and give the pack to john and amber ending the Samuel line. Maybe it's time my family has been ruining this pack since its creation. I must have done something horrible to have the goddess so mad at me. “if this is what you want to be free of me and away then ill give that to you. You don’t have to leave the pack stay here let them help you and love you like they already do. Make this your home. I will give the pack over to john and amber and I will go. You deserve to have a loving home.” with that I stood up looked back at her once a tear escaped my eye and I shifted running back to my cave deep in the woods. I will wait until john and amber let me know she's back. Then I will pass the alphahood to john to accept her rejection and leave the pack. I just want her happy.
Blocking all links just needs some time to heal and think. On the way here I took a different route rolling in nightlock and skunk weeds to mask my scent before doubling back here. John knows about my cave but he doesn't know my cave has a cave. Slipping in the hidden chamber I push the rock in front of the door leaving me locked in a tome. Curling upbringing my tail over my nose. I close my eyes and just let everything settle over me. I can't stop the tears as my heart breaks leaving me gasping for a breath telling myself over and over that this is for the best. As long as she is happy. I did something to deserve this. At least she's free to do as she wants now. I will break the bond by ending my life giving her a better chance at a second chance mate. Someone she could love. Drifting off to sleep I smell john but I know he cants smell me. Listening to him sniff around before howling in pain. All I do is cause pain. Everyone will be better off with me gone. Tonight when the moon is high ill pass things over to john say my goodbyes after I make it to dead man's drop. Hoping that I am long swiped away from the pack lands cleansing it of my curse. Letting sleep take over one last time.
