Chapter 34
William pov
Hearing john talking with amber and wade I had tried to link them but nothing. I couldn’t move or speak. The only thing I can do is listen so that's what I did. Listen to probably the last conversation I will ever hear. The things that are being said are breaking my heart. When amber said that the monster that took my sister was allie's brother had me feeling all sorts of things but none of it would or could have been directed at her. I saw the state she was in when I found her how on earth could she think that I thought, for one second, she had a hand in anything and when she found out Clara was dead she cried and apologized telling me she tried.
The more amber tells them the more my heart breaks and the more I understand why she thought it was for the best to reject me. Though I wouldn't hold it against her it's what she wants so I will let her go. Well, as soon as I can wake up fully I will finish what I had planned. But come to think of it why can't I wake up why can't I move? Think think think what is the last thing you remember to think to damn it. The field has silver light content. yay yay what else stupid ass self “you leave me no choice” oh what the rabbit balls. I’m still dreaming or is this whole thing a nightmare. Yep, that's what it is all a nightmare caused by the pain from the rejection. Just need to wake up. Anytime now. WAKE THE DOG TITS UP nothing I do is working to wake myself up. “that's because of your not asleep child. You are in a coma state but can hear everything. You said they would be better without you. If when I come back you still feel that way ill give my blessing to your plan. But if you find you are wrong you have to do as I say” the voice bounces through my brain. I can hear John and wade pushing the door open and the laugh of the voice at the same time telling me its all true.” fine” I say back and a pressure I didn’t notice lifted out of my head. But my body stayed the same.
I feel john lift me and now realize I was back in human form by the way I flopped around. Sending thanks to the goddess as they would want to have me in the medical center and wolf form would cause some issues. The biggest being our human bodies are much smaller than our wolves. Well that's probably the main reason. “wade look around and look for anything that can cause the will to be like this” john told wade before I feel him walking towards the front of the cave. “how the hell am I supposed to get you our of here will? What the fuck did you take huh? don’t you fucking die on me do you hear me? Never in my life had john ever talked to me like this. I soon feel him set me down. “wade come help me push and pull will out so I can take him to the packhouse” oh this is gonna hurt.
However long you think it takes to pull an alpha wolf out of a hole when he's in an unconscious state well times that by ten. Turns out the way your body twists and turns when you move to get in someplace does not work the same when someone else tries to get your body to move that way. I am sure I was missing a layer of skin as well. Both john and wade were huffing and puffing by the time they got me through the cave entrance. “next time you pull something stupid can it be out in the open. Cause if it's in there I’m blowing the door open” john grumbles. “better not be the next time do you know what would happen to this pack without him?” I hear amber cry out. Waiting to hear the answer but nothing came. No one said anything. A long while later the door opened and shut. Darkness took over again.
Tingles wake me. like before I couldn’t open my eyes or move I am starting to hate this. “why would you do something so stupid? So many people count on you.” I can hear the anger in her voice. Anger at what I did not why I did it. If she does not want me why is she here? The whole time she is in the room with me she holds my hand. On and off she repeats that over and over. Letting go of my hand she says “you're stupid you know? You know you deserve a better mate than I could ever be that's why you avoided me so why are you being all like this now that I gave you what you were too chicken shit to do? You fixed me then broke my heart now you want me to feel guilty too why? I thought you were different. You are all the same only care about yourself. I hate you. Do you hear me I hate you? I HATE YOU!” she slaps me. I can hear the tears in her voice as she yells at me and I know without a dought she does not mean what she said. As her words sink in my heart breaks she thought I was avoiding her because I didn’t want her. I thought she didn’t want me so I was giving her space. I am the problem I caused all of this she deserves better than me. I will give her that I will let her have a chance for a second chance mate the one she deserves. Feeling tears falling from my eyes but I’m all alone so no one knows. My heart is shattered I caused her more pain the one thing I never wanted to do. Wishing for the darkness would take me again and keep me. Feeling darkness tickle at the edges of my mind I welcome it as it closes in the alarms go off.
