Chapter 29
From the minute we arrived alpha William has kept his distance from me. I don’t know if I like this or hate it. I have been laying in this big bed, in this huge room that he gave me. I can barely smell him down the hall. sometimes at night, I swear I smell him outside my door. I know that it's my fault he is so distant. Tomorrow I will hunt him down and have a talk with him. I will tell him I understand and will accept his rejection all I ask is that he gives me one more week to heal. I will leave and leave all the things that are not mine. That I do not hold it against him or that I am surprised that he does not want me.
Tonight I will let myself smell him and enjoy being this close to him. I will be ready to leave tomorrow if he demands. I make sure the room and everything in it are clean and put away. All the clothes and things alpha Derick bought for me to use. I wrote a note and placed it in the top draw on the dresser. In the letter, I thanked him for saving me and letting me heal. Once I find work I will send money to start paying him back for his charity. Asking him to pass that on to alpha Derick as well. I will leave in what I’m wearing and that is it. So for tomorrow, I have picked out a pair of warm fuzzy pants, a thick tee, and a hoodie. Nothing more.
The longer I lay there awake thinking about tomorrow the more I feel like crying. I knew he wouldn't want me he talked to the doctor. Even though the doctor said he wouldn't tell the alpha about my scars and abuse he can clearly see, I know you can't keep anything from an alpha. He knows about the things I was forced to do and he is grossed out and doesn't want me. When he told me he saved himself for his mate. Even after losing his first mate he still saved himself on the chance he had a second chance mate. I knew wouldn't want me once he knew I was not pure like he is. I didn’t have a choice but I was still being used. No one wants someone like me. I pray to the goddess that he will be given a mate he deserves. One as pure as he is.
Waking to the sound of birds I smile. I love that sound I love hearing anything seeing the world the sun. I thank the goddess every day I am free. I will cherish every second I spend here. Taking a hot shower saying my goodbyes to this wonderful place. Once I have showered and dressed I made sure the room was in order and clean. Squaring my shoulders I leave the room in search of the alpha. Coming to a large door on the second level of the house. I can smell he is in there along with a she-wolf. Staring at the door do I knock and interrupt them or wait. Maybe she is the she-wolf he will choose as his mate. I can do this and the sooner it's done the better. So I knock.
A beautiful red-haired she-wolf answered the door. She smiled at me and that's probably due to not knowing who I am to the alpha. “can I help you? She asks in a sweet voice. Her tone was nothing short of motherly. That will change soon. “is the alpha available?” I ask staring straight ahead. Just breathe you can do this. Look at her she's perfect just what he needs. I can do this. she opened the door wider letting me in. Taking a deep breath I crossed over the threshold of the door. His scent is so strong in here. Every inch dripping with his scent. Finding his eyes with mine I register the confusion. Looking back at her at him again I decided right there and then to free him myself.
“I Allison Clark reject you alpha William Samuels.” turning I run. Tears stream down my face as I head for the front door. Am earth-shattering roar rushes over me causing me to stumble. It's so full of pain and anger. Running faster heading to the tree line. Not knowing if I can do it or not I will myself to shift. It's been a year since I shifted. Fire rushes over me screaming in pain as I drop to the ground. Shifting into my Grey wolf. Getting my footing after a hard shift. Feeling the spur of strength I get in this form I push off hard and fast. I can't remember any of the maps I studied. Al I can think about is, my heartbreaking. It's better this wa…………
The wind is knocked out of me as my face slides across the ground. Rocks sliced into my skin drawing blood. Moving to get up a deep angry growl freezes me in place. Turning my head to look behind me I see a giant black wolf with glowing angry green eyes. The anger settled over me fear entering every cell. Shaking as I feel him lower himself to me holding me down. Tears streaming down my muzzle puddling just under my head. I have nothing so bowing my head in submission. Whimpering as he puts his weight into me. He is telling me he is bigger, and badder than I am my life is in his hands closing my eyes I welcome death. I pray to the goddess to make it fast and pain-free. He then lifts off of me. I hear the breaking of bones so I know he is shifting. “shift Allie” I want to shake my head and run away but something in his tone told me to listen to him. Shifting I curl up into myself. “why?”
