Chapter 86
Waking up I am sore all over. Still laying in my own blood and other fluids. The moment both Renee and wren violated me spilling my blood in their excitement my soul died. They stole something I had been saving for my mate.
It's not unheard of for shifters to no longer save themselves, but we here in the snowpack have held on to those traditions. I have never found men sexually attractive and now I see a monster when I see Wren or Loki. Granted Loki has only supplied the drugs and some healing when they have gone a little overboard.
One day out of every seven fallen shows up with clean clothes. Clean food and just a sense of family. With her father and brother now frozen piles next to my parents and brothers she and I are the rightful alpha and beta. A role neither of us planned for or wanted.
Things changed the day Renee tossed the best-smelling shirt into my small cell. Her joy made my stomach turn and my skin crawl. From that day on she would wear the shirt as they have their way with me. Not only were they torturing me physically they were now torturing my wolf and my soul. The fresh snow cream with hints of vanilla both haunts me and soothes me.
When I heard them talking to someone to the master I knew it was my mate. The one person my soul still begs for. I know in the end I am no longer worthy of being a mate, but maybe just maybe she will find it in her heart to save me.
Day weeks months I no longer know how long I’ve been the twin's play toy. They had been overly aggressive last night. I thought they marked each other but they only did the biting part of marking. Or they can’t mark each other because we’ll they are twins.
When the dungeon filled with the scent of fresh snow cream with vanilla I thought Renee was coming to break me some more. What I didn’t expect was for my mate to be joining me in the dungeon.
I thought just her smell alone would break me and have me on my knees begging her to accept me. But the moment I locked eyes with her my whole world tilted and my future flashed before me. I have seen pups running around us in our old age. Enjoying a quiet life together. So finding out she was the future alpha of the black rose pack killed me. She's an alpha she needs a strong mate and I was anything but.
She showed me her heart when she gave up chasing down the twins and Loki to free my pack. But when she started to glow red and what looks like a red fog starts to form around her that I start to question everything I’d ever learned about wolves.
Master Ambrose is here. Right in front of me speaking to me. He addresses my mate as an equal yet she’s an alpha. Then again he is master Ambrose so maybe he is equal to her. I can smell the power that comes from them both. I have no clue what he shot into my mate but she dropped fast. Barley made it to her before she hit the ground.
We didn’t stay long after that. Master Ambrose whisked us away to the black rose. Where I come face to face with my mate's father the alpha of the black rose.
Alpha Philip Samuels.
Master Ambrose didn’t stay long taking Enoy my beautiful mate I don’t deserve. The alpha let the others head off the bed tended to but asked to speak to me. The tale he told was so heartbreaking yet left a seed of hope behind. By the end of the day, I no longer knew what direction was up and down.
This room, this bed surrounded by everything that drips Enoy is torture and soothing at the same time. Grabbing a quick shower and changing into the borrowed big clothes I crawl into the bed that is dripping with the scent of my mate. Falling into the best sleep of my life up until that point.
Over the next few days or weeks who knows at this point, I grew stronger and more confident. As promised the alpha brought me several journals to real. When he handed them to me he said “I’m not gonna lie reading these will be life-changing. You will learn a lot of things most don’t know. You will see things most have never seen. These are not normal journals they are memory journals of the Luna. Ambrose told me you would say yes there for I am sorry but I must order you never to speak what you learn out loud to anyone other than myself and Ambrose.” Even though I’m not a member of the pack I still felt the order settle over me sinking in. He left me with more questions than answers so guess it’s time to learn to love reading.
Several things started to go off in my head as I read the journals. Connections to things that just barely made it to the north rumors are now made real. Things I had believed my whole life altered with just a few of these journals. One thing I am sure of is if everything had been open to the alphas several things wouldn’t have happened. But then I question whether other things would happen if this didn’t happen. After too much circling the bone and not getting closer to a solid answer I decided to live by one of the rules I have grown up with. Everything happened for a reason.
Deciding to learn from the past Luna’s instead of being the toxic male and blowing it off I really settle in to read each word. Letting every emotion spilled on the pages wash over me. Showing me the truth of the words. The heart breaks the rewards it’s all here. What I do think was done wrong was keeping the future alpha in the dark for so long.
A plan starts to form in my head but I’ll need to speak with master Ambrose to find out if this is even an option before I suggest it to the alpha and to my mate.
