Chapter 12
Kaiden
[…She is such a small thing.] Rakaam said to me. I smiled, the high of victory had reduced a great deal of its potency because I was calmed at my desk by her shyness. She looked at my bandages and gently touched my stitches. She was terrified, but curious, feeling guilty. I wanted to say something, but I knew right now it would come out wrong.
Or at least to her, it would sound that way. I’d brought my mate fear again with my power, and it made me wonder exactly how good was she at telling how much stronger I was than her? I wouldn’t be surprised if she could, but I hoped deep down that she couldn’t. That rogue made me lose it, but for her sake I couldn’t keep my mind on that. I hated that I made her feel this way.
It is no one’s fault; this happens at least twice a year. Every year, like clockwork. The pups of alphas, not strong enough to take over from a stronger sibling venture out to test their mettle, not being satisfied with the title of Beta.
It was about 12am now, I had actually done everything I had put off since meeting her. Just being around her was honestly all I wanted to do, even though the end of the month was coming up, meaning me and Beta Connor have to make sure all the invoices are set up to be paid. I let out a big sigh at the thought of being stuck here the entire night.
Warriors from the border patrol reported that everything was clear, and for that I was a little glad. If there was another challenge, no matter how battered I was, I would meet them. I wasn’t worried about defeat; no regular rogue would be able to do that no matter how injured I was.
And if not Rogues to look out for, there was a deadline to meet on everyone’s paychecks. Delta dealt with that as the pack accountant, however I still had to approve certain requests, time off, and so on. The packhouse was a hub for the human equivalent to HR, and as it’s head, I tried for nothing to get past me.
I typed with one hand while she supported herself with her own. It made me happy to feel the tingles of the mate bond on our skin that touched too. It made all this bearable. Had I not had my mate, I think I would have waited, because I likely would still be fighting off the aggressive state I get from battle, and I would be unable to work like that. It would probably last until I healed this hand, but thankfully this wasn’t the case.
“…. Does it hurt?” I heard her shy voice ringing in the silence.
I looked at her small concerned face, her sparkling blue eyes dazzled with sterling flecks. Her frizzy hair was so soft against my chest. She touched my bandages, soothing my reconnecting nerves. It did hurt, but I would never tell her that. I must be strong at all times, as not to have others worry. The last thing I wanted was to see her more upset.
“I’ll be healed in the morning.” I half lied. I would still be sore, but all my outward injuries should be fine. She seemed to not buy it, but she did not push it.
She rubbed her tender hands on my jagged body, sending me into a mess of desire and lust thanks to my wolf. Her skin was the finest silk, and her touch made me moan internally. I tried to hide it, and I don’t think that she noticed yet. Seeing as how she was directly on my lap, her movements were making it worse. /I needed to stop this./ I thought to myself. Rakaam protested but did not try to retort me. “You’re going to get covered in dried blood if you keep that up babygirl.” It came out as a lustful grunt. She yanked her hand away, finally realizing how turned on I was.
“…. Sorry.” She said a little embarrassed, but I gave a light chuckle.
“You’re fine.” I reassured her, and continued to slowly type with one hand.
Her face turned bubblegum pink, looking away from me, so cute being completely innocent to my wicked ways. I couldn’t help but feel like this moment should last forever, she was worth remembering her every feature and action. But all good things have to come to an end eventually. I wasn’t looking forward to it, but it’d gotten late, and I knew she was probably tired.
I fake yawned. “Let’s get ready for bed.” I said with a stretch. She let out a real one and rubbed her eyes.
I let her use my bathroom while I was stuck in the guest room again. I didn’t want to push it, and I was getting tired of cold showers to calm my wolf. She really was the light of my world. I saw only her through all the red of rage. It was like she was a siren calling me to a rocky shore of clear headedness. I just slipped on some boxers and laid on my back. my body was still sore, though the cold shower had helped on that front a bit too, and I resided myself to my lonely victory today.
I felt a soft small jiggle of the bed; she had come to me of her own accord. Honestly, it made me feel like I didn’t hurt, pride and comfort replaced my cold loneliness. She was my prescription, and she didn’t even know it. I pulled her close, and I breathed in her scent. She placed her arm on me and used me as a pillow, and I fell asleep until morning even though I intended on taking just a nap.
-------Eclipse--------
His breathing was so heavy, and I could occasionally hear his hand pop, as if the bones were healing rapidly, his eyes also red... meaning he was his wolf. I saw him lay there, even though I think at first, he tried to pretend he wasn’t tired, but I guess I soothed him somehow. I didn’t want him to be all alone in the dark with no comfort. He did everything for the pack, and the least I could do was be with him while he healed. He had no emotion to his face; his wolf had completely taken over, and I was not sure if I was okay with that.
He yawned a deep long yawn. It rumbled my body, making me feel like I was sliding down a bumpy path. I could not fight my tiredness, nor could I process this. The grip of sleep overcame me, but his warm body next to mine was perfectly still, as if he were trying not to spook me. I slowly felt him wrap an arm around me, but it too gave comfort. I closed my heavy eyes; I could feel his gaze but could not meet it.
I woke up to see him getting dressed. Wearing dark blue jeans, some black slip on shoes, and the whip dangled from his side. He walked out the door, his face full of conviction like he was on a mission. I was too tired to tell him goodbye, but he stopped mid stride. He walked to the bed and gently kissed me on the forehead. “See you in a minute babygirl, I have to go do something.” He said the last part darkly and walked out swiftly.
I rolled out of bed, my inner wolf now excited and nagging me to chase after him, but by the way he spoke, I figured he was probably headed to Horizon, the prison, and I wanted no part in seeing what he was going to do once he got there.
I made the bed, breathing in his scent from yesterday. It was probably the most authoritative I had ever sniffed yet, and you could taste it, lingering in the back of my mind like a record. It was almost like there was a danger to it, my instincts telling me that I should not be close to this scent, but it was my mate, how could I not be close?
I ignored these thoughts, and I took a shower. He was probably not coming back anytime soon, so I thought I should visit my parents. They had not seen me in 3 or 4 days by now? I couldn’t remember, it all seemed like one big one at this point. My emotions and hormones were everywhere, fluctuating on how I felt. Oddly enough, after I shifted, I did feel slightly better about Alpha; it wasn’t complete terror as it was when I first met him. Slowly I guess I was changing.
I got out and put on the last outfit that they left me in the duffle bag, a green t-shirt with a big pink flower on it and a pair of black stretch pants. I let my hair stay wild today, just brushing it to tame it some, but not too much, it wasn’t going to happen.
I walked down the stairs, no one was in the living area at the moment, and I walked out the door.
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